It feels like I've lost so many friends in the last few days and it feels good to be surrounded by real people. 

Relationships

I feel like I am not noticable enough in my friends group. Maybe I am not pretty enough or I am not open enough but it hurts when you are never an important part of the conversation.

3am Thoughts

I don't smoke, drink, or party every weekend. I don't play around or start drama to get attention. Yes, we do still exist!



Career

I am literally fed up with the fake people around me..... Friends backstabbing me and not sharing any of their news with me. No hopes about Crush and love lyff.... Stressed with unwanted education and for jee competations.....really fed up.... I donno but I am scared that I might turn out a monster if this continues..Hope y'all understood what situation I am in and how f***ed up I am.... Searching for a loyal guy /gal (btw me a guy 16 yrs) to befriend with

waiting for the right person at least now who can push me out of these problems
 

Friends

I don't have any actual friends. I thought I had a few very close ones and then realised that all are there for some reason or are either expecting something from me. Remove it from the equation and they're gone. I feel so lonely. No one actually listens and understands me. I wanted to ask if anyone has any real genuine friend who can just simply talk and listen to you without expecting anything from you and vice versa? 

Lonely

I don't need friends. What's the point of friends. They just leave you. They judge you. They don't accept you. They hate you.   They're overrated.

All my friends are hanging out and didn’t invite me or ask about me 🙃

Here is a sad, but interesting story. I solved a very big mystery in my life today. I am 29 years old. I have always been told that I get attached to people very soon. If I had a penny for every time I heard this, I'd beat Ambani. 

Why do I get attached so quickly?
Why do I share my life's stories so quickly?
Why do I speak like I've known them for years?
Why do I act like they are my best friend?
Why did I think just cause they are nice to me they wanna be my friend?

It was hard but SIMPLE truth, my dumb brain took a while (years) to understand or realise this and the answer came to me. 

Im speaking nothing but the truth when I say this - I have, not once in my entire life, experienced what having a friend is. NOT ONCE, even for 5 seconds. 
Kindergarten to college to work to being 29 years old. My inbox is empty, I dont have a friend to share reels with or acquaintances, I dont know how it is to have a friend. 
In college and school, I used to hide in the library cause of lack of friends. 

Eventually, the need to have one was much that I had intentionally become a desperate toxic person, needy for friends and some attention. 

SO yeah - Now, off late when people try to be friends with me, Its funny. I feel like saying "im good, no thanks." i've gotten used to this... 

LMAO friends/friendship, words I never got to use in my life. 

Do u guys feel sorry that you don’t have any friends anymore bc of your past and get depressed over that and daydream about having friends or someone loving u. Like am I the only one. Likeeee ughhhhh. 

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