Is it worth waiting for someone who loves you but isn’t sure abt the future. I have been anxious ever since. And nothing is helping me

Wat if he isn’t sure coz he isn’t settled 

its not worth just leave it, if someone loves you, he/she will talk about the future with you

3am Thoughts

I only focused on studies from school to college.Not even tried to learn swimming,cycling and other extra curricular activities.After completing college ,not placed in any company.Then finally joined non related job to my studies for 2 years then after that joined my interest job.im currently working in later job for 1 year still no increment and salary is less compared to first job.People consider me dumb because i  cannot get nice package nor i learned about any basic skills needed. I cannot afford any big dreams for my family.I'm feeling lonely .i also now consider myself as unfit for anything

Depression

Have you ever felt life drifting away from you?
Like you have and want to do so much more
But the world just drags u down
Shuts the light inside of you
Puts you in a dark hole 
Asks you to face through and come out of it
And now you have the scars but the light inside of you shines less
But yesterday i felt it again 
I could feel the heat the warmth of my potential
My purpose 
And i hope anyone out there going through the same to stay there and hold in there 
Because something good is waiting out there for you 


Affirmations

I don't know what to do with my life. I graduated in 2020 nd now i have no idea as to what to do.. What job can i get from a mere honours graduation degree? I have no idea. 

Job Security

Ab iss app pr BTS fan girls nhi dikhri kya baat h ..?

Music

Which one? 

Binge Eating

I'm going thru a break up. We were in a relationship for 5 years. I'm amazed how people can fall out of love every now and then. 
Is it wrong to be crazy about someone and don't get the same feelings reciprocated? Is it wrong to love someone to that extent?
I sometimes feel so alone and empty without her that I do stupid things to get her attention.

Should I abandon any chance of getting back together?

Anxiety

Idk what to do anymore, I am used to feeling sad every day you know but...sometimes it is too much. I had a mental breakdown last week when I was hugged by one of the lunch ladies, she is like a second mom to be and is really nice to me. I really needed a hug and when she hugged me I broke down. I stayed with her for a little bit before going to my class. I thought I was okay now that I cried, and I broke down in class...not even a min passed that I have sitten down and I cried. I couldn't control it, and I ran out of class and didn't come back until 20 min of the class were left. The students that sat next to me just stared at me and I felt very embarrassed. And I feel like I want to cry again...I want a hug from the cafeteria lady but I don't want to bother her too much. I really hate my life, it sucks. AND I also feel second-hand embarrassment for myself for crying when she hugged me. I guess the universe loves to humiliate me.

Dear reader,

There has been a lot in my mind lately but i have disided to write to all of you my point of you about what is love. Now that is a question that we've been asked many times in our lives or many of you might have asked it to someone.If you want the answer you are in the right place so keep reading. I will try to make this as much interesting as love is.First of all let me tell you that love doesn't have just one type and doesn't have just one way.

Let's begging with the type of love that comes to everybody's mind when they hear "i love you'' or "i think i am in love''.This kind of love is both beautiful and awful and I am going to explain to you why is that. Let's look at it from the beautiful perspective. I mean come on isn't it beautiful when you know there is someone you can trust with your feelings, someone you can share funny moments with, someone you can continue and built your future at? It is and dont tell me the opposite. It is beautiful when you have that person who when you hug, you can feel the comfort and the safety, the reveal from this cruel world. 

Then i come to dissapoint you after all the things i wrote that made you think of your loved one. This type of love is awfull as well. Nothing is onesided so isn't love. What happens when the one you love breaks your heart in million peaces? What happens when this one person stops loving you and giving you the affection they used to? This is when we say that love is awfull. 

Now there is another type of love that could never dissapoint you in any possible way that i could think of.I would considerate this type of love as happiness... Remember when you smelled that perfume you LOVE the most? Remember when you ate the favourite food you Love the most? Remember when you saw thatcute little puppy and you just LOVED it? You must have had the feeling of happiness when these happened. Haven't you? This ove can't disappoint you. But only haunt you with it's beauty and wondefull mystery.

Hmmm..OH! How could i forget? The well-known "family love" yeah that is rare. I dont want to make you feel sad or anything but the world we live in is not made of sweets and candies. Most people from who you are surounded have surtainly not felt this type of love. But this is what are friends for. Aren't they? Friends are Family or like family to some people this is why i am putting these in the same paragraph. Friends are everywhere, they have helped you do things, you grew up with them or you grew up to get to know them just like your family. 

Without further do, I once asked my little nephew "what is love?'' he said.." Love is being licked in the face by a puppy..even if you kicked it before." Remember love is like a salty camdy if that makes sense. Nothing to last forever and nothing to not even last. If you don't experience it you will not get to know it. 

Always yours, AngelBlue

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