Is it true?
 Can i really get it?
 "It is said that if you want something from the heart ... then the whole work takes effort to match it with you.

You know what? It's true. I have experienced it. You have to really really want it and then you have to work towards it untiringly, and it can and it will happen 

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Everything Bad keeps happening

Lately I am feeling lonely
My Bestfriend doesn't talk to me much 
I am having an inflammation in the eye 
The medicine which the doctor prescribed caused rashes on my skin 
Today I turned on the induction stove it blew up and stopped working.
Sometimes I think it's not worth living.


Failure

I'm 21M and she is 21F. Apologies in advance coz it's gonna be a long story and also sorry in advance for any grammatical mistakes.






So, it all started on January of 2020, i went to the b'day party of my school friend and due to some communication gap the club they booked bailed on us. We were stranded on metro station with nowhere to go, so i called one of my friend and got us into the one of the best club of our town. My long lost crush was also with us but i was over her at that time and was just focussed on enjoying the party.
After the party we left and made a chat group where we share the pictures of the party. From there one of my best buddy took my crush's number and started chatting with her and after some days i got a random call from my same friend. I was little surprised but i was also happy, that day we talked for like an hour. After that he started calling me regularly ( days and nights) and always wanted to talk about our High school adventures,(how we were the most famous kids of our hugh school and how we were the most dangerous gang at that time, etc) i find it little strange but for first few days i also enjoyed talking and remembering our old days but soon i started to get suspicious about someone else also being on call(as my cell didn't show if I'm in a normal call or a conference call).
After like 8 days , i meet that guy personally and confronted him about someone else also being on call, at first he dismissed me but after insisting alot, he finally told me that the other person was my long lost crush.
So, basically when i arranged that club she got impressed by me and when my friend contacted her she told him that she liked me and wanted to be in a relationship with me. And it was his idea to put her on a conference call with her mic being on mute and there she would listen to our conversation and get to know me better.
I felt so violated and i got angry with my friend and i also messaged her and shouted in her. Then later they both called me and said sorry.
After that i told her that I'm not interested in her and also that she should focus on her own relationship.
She asked me to be just friends, for which i agreed.
After that we started meeting, calling, texting. Everything was going great, she started telling me about how her current bf not give her time and how he is always busy with friends, etc. And she wanted to break up with him and wanted to be with me. 
After like a month, when i developed feelings for her and was ready to date her, she broke up with her bf and came into relationship with me.
After that our relationship went really smooth for like 1 year, i became more and more in love with her everyday.
I was even ready to marry her.
But between that one year, the first lockdown happened and our colleges got closed and we were forced to be in a long distance as we live on the opposite edges of city. After the lockdown eased a little i got involved in family business and got busy there.
And after one year, just a month before our anniversary she met another guy like me and fall for him but he was a Playboy and just wanted to use her(which i got to know later). So, she broke up with me (for the same reason for which she leave her last bf)  but kept in touch with me bcoz i was head over heels for her at that time. 
Also she got me block from everyone of her friends by saying a lot of wrong stuff about me(which i also got to know later) by which i can't find what her real intentions for this guy.
She told me that i didn't gave her enough attention due to my work and that another guy is just her childhood friend (which he was not), also he is in relationship with her friend( which he was not) , also they never meet in real life( which was also not the case).
I accepted the breakup and also she offered to stay with me as friend. Which i accepted bcoz i was in love with her. But over the period of 3 months, i grew suspecious about her relationship with that "friend" and when one day i had enough, i hacked her insta and found out the real truth.
Then i gather the evidence and called her confront but when i confronted her, she said that i was being delusional and there is nothing between them, then i send her the proofs over the chat while she was on call with me and when she saw what i got the proofs. She panicked and started crying.
I got really angry and started shouting on her and threatened her then she agreed to tell me the truth.
How she cheated on me and did the same thing what she did to her last bf but unlike him i had a really good image in front of her friends, so first she destroyed that image by telling them the lies about me(which i couldn't think of doing) and told all of them to block me. So, this way, they will not tell me about her cheating on me and she will execute her plan but due to this guy being a fuckboy, she decided to have me as a fall guy.
After that confrontation, i decided to talk to all of her friends but they were not ready to talk to me bcoz of her lies and in the last i had convo with that new guy and told him the whole story after which he left her.
That way she came crawling back to me.

Then i decided to take my revenge on her, i started treating her like she treated me in those 3 months.
But to my surprise, she take it all without even a single complaint. I told her to clear my name and she did it little bit to show me.

I didn't want to hurt her physically and also didn't wanted to even touch her. So, i started giving her back the mental torture, she gave me.
She took it all really well.
After a 3 months, i stopped it. And asked her to leave me but she was persistent on being with me. She didn't wanted to be leave me and also didn't wanted to be in a relationship with me.
In the mean time she was trying to get my friends against me and she was somewhat successful.
And then i also didn't forced her to leave me and treat her like any of my friend and another year passed.

In January 2022, one night, she started arguing with me and that day we both were out of control and we're saying a lot of hurtful shit..
That was the last day we ever talked.
After just 15 days, she was with another guy.
After that when i talked to my friends, i got to know about a lot of shit that she told them about me, just to justify her cheating.
A lot of which even my friends  find absurd.

As i didn't had time to grieve our relationship, I'm experiencing breakup effects now but there she is happy with another guy.


Was i wrong for doing the same thing what she did to me?



Breakup

Today i fell of a cycle & got myself a deep cut on elbow😫
And its hurting. I literally fall on my back on some stones. My whole body is aching😬

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