Is it real like if you have strict parents you have a quite interesting personality but if you have open minded parents you have a lousy confusing personality mostly for women we can see in movies also I mean if a rich girl is bad influencer and why women are always in movies like a victim in movies okay like if they are from conservative parents she has discipline and from rich parent she is confusing and lousy girl and for that also they have explanation of bad parenting.

Yeah  but it constructs you to be hard and strong that's all you need to become an interesting person you "hard to get " quote used in every rom com movie

3am Thoughts

Just Ranting
Like what you guys do of keeping so many friends? Like many. Even close ones. 
When I had one friend that too online just we didn't see each other, but they were coming so closer, want to keep you in their life, like they care, but not really, it hurt me, I had to leave but also it hurts I don't have anyone, but they have many close friends. Tho don't care about me, what's that selfish reason then?

Acquaintance

What do you do when you really want to speak to somebody about deep stuffs but also don't want to bother anyone?

Overthinking

Dealing with separation during the times of your exams is worst thing. And i hate it that i still love that person who abandoned me just like that after sharing so many moments. I want to hate him for making me suffer with my grades. Especially when it's life changing. My whole year can go waste just because of loving someone who once loved me more. I am studying and still flashbacks and memories struck and i lose track.

Breakup

I've made peace with it but it still hurts 😔

Umm... 
I distance myself from everyone, so I am in contact with noone.. I don't really talk with anybody until I cross them. I just want to be alone uk(but okay with my brother). Is it normal .. I am okay? 

The kind of missing and still can't tell him.


From past days I have been pulling all nighter for my exams and wish to talk to someone since my family and I have polar opposite topics for discussion and they really can't comprehend what is happening to me mentally ,there was no use of telling them. My dad is a coward he never accept his mistakes and continue to play victim card ,my mom is same but it's tolerable somehow. Since they are same they often fight due to my dad's negligence towards us and so many things. It's become habit of my mom to nag at him every single chance she gets irrespective whether it's his fault or not. They never really thought what this does to me. I have been dealing with social anxiety and it's really bad both mentally and physically. I am attending therapy sessions and it was/is working for me. But today my dad got into fight with my uncle (who is very dear to me) and refuse to accept his mistake. It got soo much bad that I left my dinner untouched. Then as usual it got to my mom. All this time I was shaking from inside thanks to therapy it was not bad as before.Even now I am writing this with shaky hands. It's all quiet now but what about me I have engineering exam tomorrow and I didn't study whole day I couldn't. Since I spoke 1- 2 lines against of him now somewhere deep down I am feeling guilty as a daughter but he was wrong he is wrong. He have minimum balance in his bank still waste money not caring about family what is gonna happen to me what about my future I want to be financially independent as soon as possible and get away from this toxic environment which is restricting my growth. I am 18 as of now I am going to move abroad after I am 20 or 21 I can't deal with this anymore....... 
He still hasn't accepted his mistake never once

Anxiety

She was my best friend. We spent all the time together. From the mole on her right arm to my dogbite in my left leg, we knew everything about each other. Even though we knew each other only for 1 year, our bond was very special. Infact if for some reason we would not be able to talk even for 1 day, it would hurt too much. I still remember that on 18th August she was angry and did not talk to me the whole day, and then I wrote a poetry for her just because I missed her so much. (BTW, she loved the poem and even wrote it in her personal diary).

But the day she went on a date with Ayushman, I was not being able to be happy for her, even though I wanted to. She was so special and important for me that I realised that I had feelings for her. But I did not want this to happen, I never wanted to cheat her this way. I could not take this very well, so I started avoiding her. Even though she asked me a lot about her, I just ignored her and even became a little rude. Slowly she stopped messaging me and did not ask about me. It's been more than 1 month since we last talked to each other. I don't know if this was the right thing to do or not. But I know that she is still special for me, I still miss her. Every night before going to sleep I read our old chats and smile and cry at the same time. I don't even know what to say anyone or what to do, I just know that I hurt myself everyday and I don't want to do it anymore. 



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