Is it okay to be mad at yourself for not being fully functioning due to your illness?
It’s not okay. But we all are. We’re human i guess. Get help mahn! Don’t fk yourself up further, I’m regretting not doing anything for myself to help me heal or learn what the Fk and why the Fk is everything the way it is rn. Maybe go take some therapy from betterhelp or some good therapist that will understand what you’re going through, i dint get much from your post so I’m presuming all this. Please take and use all the help that’s out there. You deserve to feel better and feel atleast acceptance for yourself. I need that too and I’m telling you from my own experience only we got ourselves at the end of the day only we actually get what were going through so be there for yourself and don’t be so hard on yourself.
Take good care my friend, may you find healing and strength