Books

I am tierd of this i want Love 😞

3am Thoughts

time when no one replies.

Why dont parents understand that there could be something bothering us which is not related to them and can affect us. I had a small argument with my mom and I went in my room to sit alone so I won't have a huge fight with her coz I had a lot going on in my life right now. But she would not stop bugging me and keeps reminding me how a bad daughter I am and I never understand my parents.

Family

I have crush on my friend for 2 years ... sometimes I think about to confess to him ..but I back out every time because I don't want to loose such a great friendship...and recently I came out of a toxic friendship... I don't know what to do...

 anyone can help?

Crush

My best friend's mother passed away.. I feel terrible about this devastating loss.  I can't fly to the city she is in to be with her.....
#grief #loss #love

Loss

It's like my name always been a center of attraction for ppl not for the good reason but for all the bad reason to bully . I am normal middle class girl n my only fault is my name is not suitable for my gender and that's what everyone says n some ppl doubt me for my name. I mean what can I do it's something my parents gave me I can't help it. I tired many times to talk about this issue with my parents n how it's affecting my mental health but my parents never understand. I mean my name is anshul n I'm a female n everyone has a problem with it I don't know why. Does my name describe my gender? I think it do cause most of the times it's been like that. People make very harsh comment when they hear my name I remember my teacher once out of the blue called my name n made me stand n then he questioned me r u a male or female ? N everyone including my friends started to laugh and I felt very miserable. After that incident boys started to have more courage to bully me cause no one literally have a fuck about me n how I have felt. There have been several incident s which made me doubt my existence n my identity n sad thing is no one took this as a big deal ppl just make fun n enjoy. I was targeted and somehow I felt disgusting n I started to hate my name and my existence n I still do .I remember once I visited a clinic and I made an appointment with Dr n for that I got a slip but their was a typo of mr n miss and who so ever read that name slip which includes some doctors n their assisting dr started to burst out laughing they stare at me n asked me like three four times is ur name anshul ? It made feel uncomfortable I was confused like why they r behaving like that n then I saw the slip was being circulated to ppl and they all r laughing and staring n asking me weird questions finally I got to know why they were being like that but seriously I was no courage to stand for myself. I talked about the typing mistake with the billing counter who made that slip n I also mentioned what all I have  to face cause of it but he commented on it by saying u had a name which confused me problem is ur name just change it or ur gender .This insecurity always pulls me back from introducing me to other ppl with my original name I hide my identity and I doubt everyone. I have lost self confidence as well I feel disgusting when somebody calls out my name all the things starts to pop in my head and I feel so scared and after that incident I stopped to communicate to other ppl n now I'm left with no friends n alot of self doubts. I hope I have been entertaining to u ppl as well n many ppl might have laughed on my problem n some even shared it with others like look at this stupid girl n she calls it a problem bug believe me u can't imagine how much small things can change ur life . Some ppl comments whether they did it willingly or unwillingly with no intention to hurt can seriously scatter other person life n confidence. I'm so sick of it n I don't want other ppl to go through it so I want to be voice for them as well that's why I finally speaking about it on such a vast platform otherwise I would have continued to live n suffer with it. 

Insecurity

When u like someone but can't express bcuz u might lose him/her !!!! 
This feeling is the worst feeling that ever happen to someone(me)
I mean why so be complicated wid everyone.......🤧😶

Now&Me Thinks

I just came out of a relationship that was really sentimental to me. But after months of self healing and selfcare I'm all good. But today I had a dream of a guy that caused butterflies in my stomach. but in real i dont really like him like that, we're too different person.  
IDK but it felt good:)

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