Is it ok to be with bf and give ur priority to him and love him the most but make ur childhood friend (guy) whom u met after so many years "friends with benefits"?

3am Thoughts

I'm in a long distance relationship and we have time restrictions we are hardly able to talk.. so today was our anniversary and I decided to get ready and send pictures (he is the clingy one yk) but before I do that my frnd send him pics and video of me getting ready spoiling my whole surprise ...why do you always do this stupid I hate you 😭😭

Long Distance Relationship

Why she ????

Depression

Nobdy listing to me🥺🥺

Books

My most concerned thoughts:
1. I am in love with my best friend. He too feels the same during initial days. But somehow he managed to forget everything and acts like nothing happens for few months. Again he came back and said me that he likes me but due to some family problems he is not ready to proceed. He is not settled till now. I am praying daily for his settlement. I don’t know whether he is good to me or not but i feel happy when I speak to him. If things don’t go well. He is ready to let go off . I am not ready to this. He says many reasons. I even don’t understand the reasons he says sometimes. It’s been 4 years the same thing happening. He comes to me talks to me and leave alone all off suddenly. Me on the other side crying, begging him, not living happily my life.
2. I am an introverted kinda person. I am not interested in the job which I am doing currently. All this heart achings and everything makes me miserable. I can’t even concentrate on anything. I can count my happy days since 4 years.I want to live my life peacefully and happily. I don’t know how it happens.

I always wanted to have gay freinds

Life

I feel like I'm in Depression 

Mental Health

SO here's my story for why I'm here, it's kind of because of me. SO my dad used to hit my mom so since being a child I've always been traumatized and not finding my place whenever I go but that's besides the point. SO one day my dad was drunk and took my mom's home and left the house then came back with the phone being broken and at the time I was young and of course I was crying with my mom and at that moment she had been fed up with this situation and wanted to leave the house but didn't know where to go so as we were usually spending holidays at my grandmother's place I've suggested her to go there, she called a friend that came to pick us up and we actually came here so now here I am, being quiet and suffocating to let my mom breathe, I've always wanted to give her the life that she really deserve, the one that my dad didn't gave her but she's the one drowning me.

Divorce

**REMINDER**
Stop searching signs at hopeless place,
Stop stalking them they aren't thinking about you ,
If they wanna talk they will
Stop checking their message..
And last but not least keep your head up
You are worth of everything...
- Queen 👑

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