Lia @leelia
Is it normal that one moment I’m crying wishing for someone to stay and the next I’m wishing everyone would disappear, i hate this feeling of loneliness but i always get distant from people and get myself back to being alone bc people exhaust me, one moment i just want to tell someone how i feel but when I face that person I lose all my strength and I feel too emotionally exhausted to even talk about it, I just don’t want anymore, all I want is to be alone and forget it all, but that’s not possible. I start talking to someone once and then ghost them and i feel sorry about it, but although i want to i can’t form any connection with anyone, bc a second ill feel really social and want to talk but the next i just want to be alone with my headphones on,my thoughts and myself only. What can i do about it? i want friends, i want to meet people but i know ill just end up leaving like always.
I just have way to many problems to be around anyone
I know exactly what you mean. I don’t know what this is called but I feel an intense loneliness and need someone with me, but when I have people here and give me some sort of attention sometimes (like my family) I just want them to leave me alone.
Lia @leelia
yea, that’s exactly what I mean. It’s weird, contradictory, and frustrating cuz i never know what will make me feel better so i just stay struggling on my own most of the time, cause although i wish i wasn’t i know that someone else won’t make it better, is like no one can help.
