Initially things will hard but as soon as you decide not to give up you initiate to uplift your spirit immediately in that moment. 

Never give up ! 

INFINITY 

Affirmations

@Hyderabad 

Boyfriend

It's been a lot lately. I thought I was doing good. Until something triggered me. Everything then shattered, everything that I was holding on to. 
I was talking to a friend and he brings up something from the past and blames me. And it triggered me. Idk it hurts, it fucking hurts. 
This person is a close and important friend. And always talks about how important I'm in his life. I don't feel the same way, I mean he is important but not that I will dedicate all my life to him, not like I want to tell him everything happening around me. I'm not good at talking in calls. I already told him that, but he insists on doing that. I started feeling it toxic. Idk he is important, but this is not what I signed up for. Because everytime we talk I end up hurting one way or other. He doesn't know anything about this and I cannot explain it to him. I feel like I'm guilty of something I didn't do, like there is a need to do. What the fuck. Why should I entertain them just because they are missing me. 
Even if I'm wrong here, idk I don't feel like talking to him. I can't take it anymore. 

Friends

I have a deep crush on my cousin. Its been more than a year. And i really wanted to talk her about it. I afraid how it might end. I don't want to hurt her.
I get the chances but i don't have the courage to open up to her. 
I feel more uncomfortable right now. The first thing I think when i woke up is about her and the last thing before go to sleep is her. I think about her every time. Her laugh, the way she talk and those pretty eyes.
I love her deeply and hardly.
I forget everything thing when iam with her.
What shoul i do? 

3am Thoughts

Today I'm feeling very low. Some because of my past feelings and some because of this app. People judge u here without knowing u properly. I feel exhausted.

lost my mother recently to covid. feel like my life has become still. worried about my father's mental health as he is the only one left for me now, who actually cares.

Depression

I'm stuck. so the thing is my best friend has ms, which she was diagnosed like a year ago. This causes her to have a lot of mood swings and just cry and feel bad about herself. I feel really selfish saying this but a year before she got diagnosed everyone in our class including me thought she was an extreme pick me and such a goody two shoes. I didn't know how to tell her and I know everyone thinks that about her. Additionally we aren't even as close as we used to be. Like she be talking to "the guys" who are not toxic like "the girls" and also this other girl who's super toxic and attention seeking. And it really hurts when we hang out and Im just third wheeling while they're talking about somethings only her and her friend understand. like bro Im going through my own shit like wtf this shit is making it worse. The worst part is that if I try to talk to her about I know she's just going to victimise herself and tell half the grade who's going the see me as the monster. I don't know what to do. the saddest part is that I love her soo much even though idk if she loves me its just heartbreaking hating someone you love.


Overthinking

Ok so there are 6 main ppl in this thing, let’s name them , Seth, Adam, Seira, Elena. Jessica and Talia, we are all in the same friend group ( talia and I were best friends but we had problems and so we decide to just be on good terms, she is a very. I’ve person though). So 1 year ago me and Seth kinda had a talking stage and he asked me out, the next day which was also my bday, he broke up with me cuz he didn’t think this would work. All my friends were with him and called me to call Seth and check up on him cuz he was sad cuz he thought he “broke” my heart. But I was fine like actually cuz it wasn’t serious, but what hurt me was none of my friends really even asked me if I was okay, and Elena who I was closest to in the friend group (currently my best friend) didn’t check up on me, I guess a part of me was glad because no one brought this up much or took it seriously and that was good. So now me and Adam were kind of close like actual friends kinda close even before this but some shit happened when Jessica joined the group and like we lost touch. Seth moved to another school too, the friend group fell apart.
2 years before, Seth dated Seira but 3 months later Seira broke up with him cuz she didn’t feel happy in the relationship and was starting catch feelings for Adam cuz Seth was always busy to be with her. Ever since then I guess seth has this way of openly asking ppl like “hey would u date me or Adam?” Or like bring Adam down in front of girls. Like 1 week ago when we were just talking Seth publicly body shamed Adam. And I was just too shocked to even speak and I have never felt that guilty in my entire life, I regretted my actions SO fucking badly. Seth is just the type of person who makes ppl uncomfortable with like dirty jokes, like that’s all he thinks about. But he wasn’t in our school so I wasn’t that close to him. Me and Adam kinda-kinda grew apart over the year since the friend group broke up even though we were friends before. But for the past few days we have gotten closer again and like I can’t help but deny the tiny attraction I feel towards him, not just looks, like I can’t point out the exact reason why I feel this towards him. Adam has this close friend let’s name him Alan, so basically alan likes me and well I don’t really like him back. So I went and told my best friend Elena, and talia about my thing towards Adam, talia told me it was okay to feel these things and that she supports me, but also that like I kinda had a thing with  his like close friend Seth. When I told Elena she completely disagreed and these were her reasons, 1. I had a thing with seth (which really was not that serious), 2. Adam’s close friend Alan likes me, I just don’t understand the second one, she still keeps telling that this is just a bad decision. And I feel like they are right about the first reason. Me and Adam probably could be something, I mean I really don’t know if he even sees me like that, he is chill but also like introverted and I am very extroverted, complete opposites, ppl sometimes tease us both but I just feel like everyone just expects us to be in a “just friends” Stagec and do nothing more. I just realllly don’t know what to do.

Confusion

Hey....right now m completely in exhaust mood ..it's Saturday night,instead of night outs ,drinks, sitting at home! ...life is more of emptier.. zone!!! Can we skip this zone to a good part!!!

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