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It has always been funny. Logic just leaves the chat

3am Thoughts

How to find out that someone likes you or not?

Crush

I hate the way she makes me feel but at the same time I love her too much and still have hope

Relationships

Why do i always feel uncomfortable around my parents? 

Adulting

I know this may sound cliché, but I'm in love with a guy who's damn shy with expressing his feelings and I completely understand, although through conversations, I've made him feel really comfortable about sharing things with me, dropped a few hints too (that he could share anything with me and I won't judge) but he still hasn't. And I know he likes me too because he keeps sending these romantic memes. I once confronted and asked him if he feels the same way, he said he's too shy to express anything. Honestly, earlier it used to give me an adrenaline rush but now I'm at a point where I just can't with him, it has taken a toll on my mental health. I keep trying to avoid conversations with him now thinking that my feelings would go away, but I ended up feeling more anxious. I thought of blocking him too, and I had once done it for fun but he flipped and asked me to never do that again. When I asked why, he said he has to "stalk" my pictures ( wtf!? ) I'M JUST TOO TIRED:(
WHAT SHOULD I DO?



तुम्हारे पाँव के नीचे कोई ज़मीन नहीं,
कमाल ये है कि फिर भी तुम्हें यक़ीन नहीं।

~ दुष्यंत कुमार

Poetry

"How long has it been?" a question no one asked because no one knew, not even my family. I do not trust my family but rather strangers instead. And to the question, it has been 4 years, since 7th grade, have I ever feel depressed and lonely. I was supposed to be a happy child, however, my dad was the person who made me question of my existence in this very world. On my sixth grade graduation day, in the car back home, my dad asked harshly, "Why didn't you get a certificate of high achievements in math or science or literature? Why does it have to be some piece of leadership skill? Where will that ever bring you to? Look at your classmates. Those bright kids." Upset, no? I later on lost my feelings for the father I used to love. My mother stayed quiet. They only saw school as a guarantee to take me to a wealthy future, but that is not my definition of school. I saw school as a place like home to children to be with one another, away from many adults and just stay in a fantasy building for a while, a place to learn and discover, a place to stand up from your mistakes and cheer on others. Too bad, I have totally forgot about how that felt about school. Growing up, school to me is a duty to fulfill in order to get to where I have been coerced to go. School is my nightmare prison, where I do not understand why I will not become someone's close friend no matter how hard I try or what I do, no one will come to me. People will notice once I leave this world, they will see me and regret. But there is no use, we can never go back.

Lonely

I’ve been broken, I’ve been shattered, the pieces are sharp and thin, those who’ve tried to pick up the pieces have been cut. Those who have managed to pick them up have all failed to glue them back together. Even once I am eventually glued together, the cracks will always show through.

Everyone will always know of me as the boy who complains all the time. Nobody understands what I’ve really been through. Nobody understands knows how I was broken in the first place. 

Life

I don't know how to feel about this
I have history of mixed anxiety depression and panic attack. I have taken treatment for that and learned to handle it calmly... Everything was going better but since few weeks I started having mild anxiety attacks.. I'm managing it well I guess... 
I'm 25 years old and in a long distance relationship... He's supportive and positive about our future plans.. But he's not stable financially... I'm a corporate worker... I help him whenever he needs... I don't feel anything bad about it.. I'm happy to help him get stable so we can settle down... 

Today he asked me for a financial favor and as always I didn't say no and I also didn't say yes... I said we'll discuss... 

I was tired so I was trying to sleep.. I wanted to sleep instantly so I applied rules from a article on sleeping which says to relax your body and picture relaxing scene in mind... I proceeded to do so and I started imagining us on a beach, sitting and watching sunset but it started bothering me and  I got all thoughts about him asking a financial favor... I got confused and my mind started imagining myself on the same  place but alone... Every place started playing in my mind which I want to visit but I was alone and I felt relaxed... But I don't want this... I'm afraid of having such thoughts... Thinking of him is supposed to make me happy and relaxed... 

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