In today’s news.
He gets up at 7:30 PM as usual despite of me suggesting we wake up a little early so we can get some exercise in before we start our work days.
As usual I get the you correct yourself first, then I will decide what I want to do.
I wake up early each day to cook breakfast & lunch and complete the chores.
He sits for a drink and I don’t know how many.
It’s 3 AM, I’m watching “The sinner” in my office room and I step out to his room to feed the dog. He wakes up immediately in anger and walks straight towards me and then charges to my room and breaks my laptop.
Reason: I woke him up because I was trying to feed the dog that he brought home, the one that hasn’t eaten the entire day, the one he never feeds. Every single noise wakes him up, so my laptop is broken. But he watches episodes and movies after movies long after I get to bed to sleep.
This is somehow validated.
I don’t know how much longer I can take this.
Hey!!
It’s horrible what he is doin to you…May I know what is stopping u from leaving him?
I did leave him. But he got me back crying and begging his way for another chance. It was me who got beat before I left. Now it is random objects, objects that belong to me.
@Aguanna - Sometimes words are only as good as their dictionary meaning.
Sometimes I truly believe it is okay to run and hide from something or someone that is much stronger than you are and is causing you pain.
I’ve been in exact same situation as ur right now… Its just that ur partner is throwing objects but mine was physically and verbally abusing me by hitting and shouting at me… Even I gave out many chances to my partner thinking things will change, but that’s just a myth…After taking so much heat I had to move out.
There is love and I kinda miss my partner a lot, but now I can’t take the physical abuse.
So moving out was the best thing I did for my happiness.
I’m sorry you had to face that. I have been there in past for over a year and I finally left. So I understand the pain you went through to realize the person you loved could hurt you so much and raise not just voice but his hands on you repeatedly. I know how much it would have hurt you to stay away cause in that period of abuse, you have somehow convinced yourself to keep forgiving and blaming yourself, so the missing comes naturally.
I’m super happy that you moved out and are now happy. Happiness will take time, I truly wish you find your happiness, the kinda happiness that will cherish you throughout life and after.
@Aguanna
Yes, fighting is hard. It is especially harder when you don’t know what you are actually fighting for.
You could fight the world for love. but fighting the one you love for your life is the hardest. Cause it isn’t supposed to be that way.
Walking away takes a lot of strength, sometimes it is very important in order to stay at peace with yourself.
@wishingstar thank you so much… Indeed it was horrible 6 to 8 months for me…
How about u?? What ru planning on doin?
Just waiting for that one last blow for me to come crashing to the ground so I can finally leave and start building myself up again
I would suggest not to wait for the blow… It really hurts and pulls u in to abyss…
End of the day it’s your decision… All the best🙂
You don’t need to take it anymore sis, he begged for you to come back. If he valued you, he wouldn’t have repeated the same. Talking this out with him is fruitless. You have one life and you can have so many beautiful moments. Do you wish to spend your entire life like this? In the fear what he might do next? Think of yourself before anything else.
Yes, thank you. I am more important. I have come to realize that. I know I am definitely leaving him. It’s only matter of time.
