In a relationship with my best friend. He had clearly told me that it would be impossible for us to have any kind of future together because of my disability. He didn’t want to get in a relationship with me initially because he didn’t want to lose me as a friend.
Alot of things happened in between and we’re in a relationship now. Very very happy together. Sometimes I wish things don’t end between us. Sometimes I dream to end up together with him. Sometimes I wish a life with him. It’s not like he doesn’t love me. Ke keeps telling me how difficult it’s going to be for him when we end things.
The fear of not getting over me even made him break up with me once. He obviously came back. He doesn’t know what to do now and honestly, neither do I.
I feel I’ve made more peace with the fact that we won’t end up together that it doesn’t disturb me to the extent it disturbs him.
I don’t know why I’m typing all of this but I just wanted to get it out of my system.
Thank you so much :)
