I'm tired and I can't take it anymore and I think everyone deserve better than me in their life as a son , brother, partner, friend. And i let them down and i can't make out of it .

Failure

i decided to change my course for my degree. but the question is, what kind of course that suit me really well? from medical to what? 

Education

Had a crush on a boy but he said he liked my bestfriend and asked me to set him up with her i did now they are a couple...but i feel hurt...i liked him....very much🙃

Depression

If you don’t believe in yourself, how could you expect anyone else to?

Personal Win

Let's connect with each other by mentioning a song abt yr mood right now..

3am Thoughts

Sending you all the very best of wishes for the new year. May your year be full of memory making moments and exciting new opportunities! 

*HAPPY NEW YEAR 2K23*

Celebration

I never really had friends, I had two important people. One left and she was my best friend. And there was this boy who was In love with me since we were in 5. But I never really felt anything for him. Like never. And it's been 7 years and we are really close friends. And I have made it very clear about my intentions. We are share everything with eachother. He's special for me. But recently he just stopped talking out of no where. And when I reacted to that he was like I was in my own world and I still texted him. But talked as if I'm forcing this conversation. So I did said him to go and study and be in his World. Like a normal person should do. But then  he's like if you didn't wanted to talk why did you texted. Daphuck ? And it was all blamed on me. I miss him but he uses such language which hurts. 

Conflict

I am exhausted. everyone says it and i hate that they misuse that phrase because i am genuinely exhausted. i cant do this i feel nothing whats the point of being here if i feel nothing im not happy or sad i just dont wanna be me anymore i dont wanna feel like throwing up everytime i think of my existence i dont wanna keep on making up scenarios where i end my life and imagine how my family react i dont wanna be this messed up weird person the whole world sees me as and the worst part about it is i can't change any of it i cant erase the image the people in my life have of me in the past i was such a twisted person and i still am now and even my family dosent know it . i know i need help i just dont know how or what for . im lost . and i feel like the only way ill be at peace with myself is if i leave . and i feel so guilty because i dont have a valid reason to kill myself apart from the fact that I hate the way my life is . take as you please from that phrase but i hate the way my life is . i hate the way my friends ask why im crying everytime we break up for half term . i hate the way my family functions . i hate the way im always chasing the wrong people and i get broken and they walk away perfectly fine . i hate the way i look . i hate the way i think . i hate the way i have to come on a website to vent because i have no one.

Emotional Abuse

My relationship with my father is becoming confusing. I have always found patriarchal society very annoying, and seeing my father scolding my mom, while she does all her work, telling me to learn household chores, or telling me to not get a tattoo, or probably telling me to do something because I am girl, and I am supposed to do it, has made me a rebel. I don't listen to whatever he says. I avoid him, I can't sit with him and listen him talking about such things. He is a very good person, but just the patriarchal part of my father, and his anger scares me so much. I don't even talk to him because I am scared that he would scold me if I don't agree with his viewpoint. 
When I don't listen to him, he says that maa ne bigaad dia hai, and zubaan chalne laggyi hai. 
I don't know what to do

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