I'm thinking to get a concert uke. so that I will be at least occupied and not tend to let my brain overthink and cry. plus it's music, so why not. any suggestions of the instrument?

concert size ukulele. but any size would do, for a beginner.

Music

Hookup with ex?
Good idea or bad? 

3am Thoughts

Life is so boring I can’t. It’s just the same things over and over. 

How to stay happy by yourself and stop depending on others?


Mental Health

I am tired of feeling alone and insecure. I make all of these promises to myself and I follow none. I say I am gonna leave youtube but no. I day I am gonna leave music but no. I say I am gonna leave animal meat because it makes me drowsy but no. No matter how much I lie to myself that I can clear this exam, there is this small mentality in the back of head saying that I just can't do it. And I am so scared of positive thinking as well Becaue when things start to go well, my destructive mind starts to ruin things. All these distractions (music, family, crush, *me time*) I Suck at time management andi just can't do well. I have so many problems and I am bot working towards any of them. I should wake up early but I don't. I should utilize car ride time, but I don't. I should practice but I don't.  I just keep lying to myself because there are so many more Capable kids. I feel really depressed and lost because there is no one to guide me on what I am doing right or wrong 

Sexuality and culture are so often seen as different topics but I think there is something to note in the Indian culture about how sexually liberal and charged it was before the British came around. It is white people's idea to make homosexuality criminal and maybe a purity thing. But we are the birthpalce of Kamasutra ffs. Our sexuality and culture go hand in hand!!! I don't even want to begin talking about the openness and the sense of freedom with which these topics had been discussed earlier in the indian society. Have you seen Khajuraho temples? Nobody can say that Indian sexuality and culture are repressed. Precisely because it is not. It took me also so long to feel confident and comfortable in my own body because it is seen as such a taboo. I wouldn't speak about it with my partner also, my needs felt unimportant. But as I have started learning more about my sexuality and placing it in culture I feel even more confident about doing things that give me pleasure. Pleasure is not everything, but it is most definitely important to make any relationship last. My partner and I have been feeling so close to each other <3. I wish I had not missed out on my younger days, I am not very old, I am 24 now but I think I wasted 7ish years thinking about sex the wrong way, the ""shameful"" way, we are better now, more grown up and mature and ""shameless"" hehe

People hang out with their friends on weekend but here I am having no one to share anything 

Lonely

Used to making dinner for two, now I have too much food. 

Breakup

I met a guy on goa trip. I liked him and he liked me too. But he already has a gf. While leaving he mentioned that he would miss me and wished he had met me earlier. I can’t seem to get him out of my head though. We are connected on Instagram and he reacts to few of my stories too…but just one word reactions…any suggestion to get him out of my head...

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