I'm stressing about and I'm crying and my chest hurts. I'm overwhelmed by my work and its all getting too much. I have no time for myself anymore. I just had a sob session and I don't know what to do.

Stress

How to make number ONE disappear?







Just add G before and it's GONE

Happy

Some say world ends in fire and some say in ice. But for me, I end in your warm hugs or in your cold heart.

Inspired Robert Frost.

Love

 hy.....strting somethng new frm today , lets see if i cn control myself and stick to it. i hugged myself and softly wispered that i love you and i kinda felt warm n my eyes turned wet. idk wat is it. just dont noe if i hav anyone in my life to say it to me.....i want to fell something,infact anythng....some sort of affection, some wanting, some belonginf....i was judging myself whn i felt warmth from my own voice and my own touch. is it wrong? or m i doing something whch shouldnt begin.  is it normal? i dont have any answer. i just knw that right now i have only darkness externally..... i do send love outside myself in hope of recieveing aatleast a part of it. but i end up being alone. i want to love eveyone who needs it /requires it......i noe its wrong to expect anyone to love me back but in reality u want to be loved back, to feel that warm touch, someone to ask if u r tired.may b i was not in love but a desperate relation with the world. 

Relationships

Not wanting to admit I’m still unwell is something I’m struggling with right now. I don’t want to accept it. I want to make people proud of me. But all I’ve ever done is mess up and made people not proud of me. They say it’s ok to not be ok, but it doesn’t feel like it. I just want to curl up into a tiny ball, and just disappear. My neighbours probably think I’m crazy, because I had a very loud mental breakdown, which is so embarrassing. I feel so exhausted and I cannot cope. 

Exhausted

what's that one song you can sing along with your lungs out 

3am Thoughts

I don't really share my feelings with anyone but I feel like I really need to. lately I have been feeling like I really should die. like I don't have a purpose here and the way that I'm feeling is just really hard to deal with. somedays tho I do come to my senses sort of and realize that I don't want to truly die I just want help. that why I changed my mind at the very last second that day. I feel so meaningless and stuck and empty. sometimes I take scorching hot showers to feel something just because cutting isn't really my style. I don't know why I'm feeling like this, I just am. I've been pretty lonely too. like super lonely actually. I gradually built up walls between me and my friends because I felt like I'm too much of a burden right now or its to hard to talk to anyone right now. idk why it is. I also don't have the best relationship with my family either. ik this sounds bad but my family are not the best people. its not that easy to talk with them either so yeah.we'll just say that. anyways my anxiety has gotten worse too. right now its too hard for me to be in public with people. I can't even walk alone because i'll panic. fun huh? to feel at ease I walk super close to the person I came with but they usually get annoyed with me. I did ask for a therapist at one point but that still hasn't happened yet so this is kinda why I'm here. for some time now I thought I could like help myself get out of how I'm feeling but its actually harder that I thought.this is all I'm comfortable talking about on here for now. I just want help

Suicidal Ideation

Does anyone feel restless 24x7? I always feel like I NEED to do something. What I am doing is not good enough. What I am doing can be done by anyone and my work is not special or useful. I am just living every day like last day and it's sad. Wake up, work, eat, watch TV, scroll phone, sleep. I want to get out of this monotonous cycle but I don't know how to start. I am just so tired and exhausted all the time. Exhausted of everything. 




Anxiety

To my people who are sensitive, who are more perceptive to judgement, critique or confrontation, you are absolutely entitled to feel however you feel. You need to be supported and protected. Please dont be so hard on yourself, the world is hard enough.

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