Gabriel @gabeg150
I’m starting to feel depressed.
I work close to 40 hours a week while I’m still in high school, staying up till 12 or 1 in the morning to maintain my high gpa. I have no friends, no trusted individuals to talk to. I miss what I had with a long distance friend, talking on the phone every night, laughing and crying together, being that boyfriend/girlfriend combo. She’s the perfect girl but god is she so confusing. I’m tired of apologizing for things that aren’t my fault. I’m tired of feeling guilty or like a failure at every turn. I’m tired of always being jealous or angry. I hate feeling like I’m weak by showing me emotions. I hate building up my confidence just so it can be struck down by every minor inconvenience. I’m tired of being a nice guy when everyone just wants to be treated like shit.
I don’t have anyone else to talk to. I feel like I’m going insane.
harley @lily_reisse
1) i feel that energy so much it’s scary 2) focus on urself and not the girl, if she’s not making you happy then don’t be with her. there’s plenty of other ppl around.
Also as a depressed person im here if u need to talk abt it
Gabriel @gabeg150
She makes me happy. Really really happy. But ever since we broke up and went back to being friends it hasn’t felt the same. She’s such the perfect girl that I’ve been looking for but I’m afraid to lose her to someone else. The moment I finally have the person I want I fear she’ll be snatched right away from me.
harley @lily_reisse
ohhhhhh ok, then maybe try to get back with her or take a few days and focus on urself and see how u feel after that
Gabriel @gabeg150
I can’t get back with her yet. We live 2 states away and is “saving” a relationship until we’re in the same area.
Gabriel @gabeg150
And focusing on myself doesn’t work. I can’t seem to keep the confidence I’ve built up. EVER. And it’s a curse that’s crippling me.
harley @lily_reisse
ok ok hear me out, the confidence comes with focusing on urself. maybe just start with doing rly small things like setting some easy goals that u can do so you feel like ur accomplishing smth.
Gabriel @gabeg150
I just wanna die. I wanna get off this planet and I want my memory erased by anyone that’s ever known me or known I existed.
harley @lily_reisse
alright don’t think like that cuz you’re here for a reason and even if life’s hard now it’ll get better, trust me. ive been suicidal before, it always gets better. find that one thing that makes you want to live, and it doesn’t have to be some big reason it could literally be because of your dog or smth
