I’m sorry mom.
I’m not the person you wanted me to become. There are things I have done that I’m not proud of but now there is no going back. I hate the person that I’ve become. I’m writing this with tears in my eyes…i never wanted to hurt you, I just wanted to make you proud…And I tried, I really did. I did my best mom. I fought with circumstances that were not easy for me but I kept going because I didn’t want to let you down. But these circumstances made me the person that I am today. I kept going deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole and here I am now…hating myself for the person I’ve become. I’m sorry mom but I was lonely… I had no one…no one to actually hold my hand and tell me that it’s okay if I mess up… Not even you mom, not even you… I had no one… I still have no one. I know you love me but you don’t understand I know that. I just didn’t want to let you down l that’s all I ever wanted…
Hareet Narhan @hareetn
The expectations that our parents have for us are sometimes very heavy for us and our parents don’t always realize that. You said that you tried and I know you are still trying because you seem like the type of person that keeps getting up every time you fall down. This shows so much strength, and I am so proud of you for coming as far as you have so far! You are not alone, I’m here for you if you need to talk 😊