im sorry if i always annoy you or checking up on you since im scared that what has happened to me happened to you. please take care cause you are literally my reason to live

Anxiety

One day you’re going to meet someone who will love you unconditionally, accept all of your shortcomings and make you feel that you’re worth having. One day, someone out there will save you from loneliness you’re feeling right now and show you that in this life, we can be happy and be over the clouds if we want to. One day, someone will travel for hours just to hold you close, feel your presence and make you feel that you are worth travelling for. One day, someone will never get tired of loving you, pacifying you when you’re angry until you become okay, feed you with your favorite food and be your best friend at the same time. One day, this someone will walk down the aisle for you and prove that you don’t need perfect relationships, you just need to be contented and be grateful for what you have. This someone will be excited to spend the rest of his days being your lifetime companion.
He will come, just be patient.
— 	E.J. Cenita

Happy

I get sad when I see my friends getting into relationship or getting married. I think I have done something wrong that I'm single. I feel so lonely sometimes. 

Lonely

So many things are causing stress in me. 
My life kind of revolves around what people will people think and comparing myself to everyone. I recently found out I have fear of abandonment. 
I wish I could tell my friends that and mend things up with them. 
I had no clue why I was feeling what I was feeling.  
Life would be so easy if we could understand anger and depression and being silent. 
I never used to use my voice much and let people make assumptions about me and made them talk on behalf of me. But now I can at least talk for myself and ask people who are killing my voice to stop doing that. 
But these insecurities makes me feel like so small and insignificant and unwanted. I feel really distant to most of the people in my life. Im grateful for my family n I am grateful for new friendships and people who listen to me and who ever is genuinely happy for my company. 

Can we be friends with people who once slutshamed you? Called you names? But somehow and sometimes had genuinely cared about you and had fun with? I chickened out on so many conversations and friendships because I was too scared to deal with them at that point of time. And made the walk all over you. 

How are you guys? Afterall I have you to share it with 🥺

 i just wanna share that I felt so embarassed in my online class yesterday because I answered 3 oral questions with wrong answers and I cant move on. I feel like Im too dumb to not check the details of the math problem so I got it wrong. 

I get overwhelmed so easily
My anxiety
Creeps inside of me
Makes it hard to breathe
What's come over me?
Feels like I'm somebody else

3am Thoughts

Our dating life was going pretty good
I never wanted something casual, I had told him earlier too and it’s was mutual feeling 
Even he wanted something permanent which leads to marriage 

Now my family is searching for alliances for me but I can’t tell my dad about him , but my mum and rest of my family know 

But the problem is he haven’t told anyone in his family … about us , his family don’t even know I exist….i told couple of times pls talk 
He is like I can tell em but after I tell them they will keep asking me everytime I go out or anything and involve me , start doubting him on everything and then we can spend enough time with each other 
They will get us married this year only and all of it 

So now I strtd thinking maybe he really don’t wanna tell his parents about us and giving reasons 
Sometimes he give me reasons as you belong to high class family , I’m kinda upper middle class will your family agree to this relationship even after me telling 1000 times that my family will never see all that , they just want happiness 

But he overthinks and telme maybe your family won’t but what if your relatives and everyone taunt and compare to other marriages happend in your family 

Another reason I’m doctor he is engineer why would someone let doctor get married to engineer but there is no prob in that too 

I don’t want should I even do 

Relationships

I was in relationship with a girl. But she was trying to cheat on me ( actually she was trying on her crush but that crush didn't liked her but then also she constantly try on him)
When I came to know that she was trying I was very furious at that time but then also after days I said let it be and please don't cheat on me next time and again we got into relationship. Then again after few months she started to trying on her crush and then 2nd time also I said let it be but next time tell me before cheating. Then again when lockdown started she started chat with that boy she even proposed her but that boy said no . Then when I came know about this she said I don't want to have relationship with you and I want stay single and focus and study. We will stay as bff. From that day we are not almost 14 days but in between she messeaged me that please reply or call but I didn't replyed her . What should I do?( Sorry for terrible English)

Girlfriend

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