Iām sad todayā¦ I wasnāt like that at the beginning of the dayā¦Iām a student and my English teacher gave us this exercise, that we should list our some emotional abstract nouns we knewā¦I instantly wrote āfearā without thinking much of itā¦ He then processed to tell us that whatever we wrote down is whatās actually happening to us in our lives right nowā¦ and yeah as you can guess Iām afraidā¦Iām afraid of a lot of thingsā¦Iām afraid of failingā¦Iām afraid of stepping out of my comfort zoneā¦Iām afraid of talking in groups (real and virtual) because my mind tell me my opinion is too stupid and meaninglessā¦Iām afraid of talking about how I feel because sometimes I believe I donāt have the right to feel that way because many otherās wouldnāt feel that wayā¦Iām afraid God hates meā¦Iām so afraid that I go deep into myself and stay there to avoid the repercussions of actionsā¦
Funny enough,when I was little, I never tht like thatā¦I donāt think I had a care in the world back thenā¦I wish I could go back thereā¦but high school cameā¦I met people who stood out moreā¦had more friendsā¦spoke up moreā¦I couldnāt compete with thatā¦so I became the quiet kidā¦who people only remembered because they needed someone to draw for themā¦
Gosh Iām pitifulā¦I hate me sometimesā¦I donāt even have anyone to talk to about the thingsā¦Iām going to cry nowā¦ thank you if you read this till the end. Iām sorry for wasting your time.
Youāre not pitiful. You are scared. And thatās OK. You didnāt waste my time, Iām grateful for the chance to help you feel better. Take deep breaths, alright? Everything will be fine. This world can be pretty hard to live in, but you need to keep going and do the best you can, no matter what that looks like. And you can always talk to me :)
ik how u feel, always comparing urself to others and thinking they are better than you. It makes you feel worthless like your not cool enough, interesting enough, good enough compared to them. I wish i could tell u how to deal with it but i dont, im going thru the same thing. But if you wanna talk about it you can, no judgement. we can both share what were feeling because i really need that to.
