Im happy in what i have and trying to maintain this emotion throughout makes sailing through tough times a bit easier

Tough times are temporary but the happiness will survive. 

Happy

 زندگی خاک نہ تھی مگر خاک اڑا کر گزری

Compassion

It's too mych garmi 
I just want to say le chal  Mujhe Kahin Dur..

3am Thoughts

What the f you guys think of yourself. Why can't you just think of someone else problems. Atleast think what will you even get with touching someone inappropriately without their permission and in public? Do you even know what type of life the girl is living? Which hell she's living in? Which situation she's facing everyday? You just did what you liked but you know what'll happen after that? No you'll never know. 


Suicidal Ideation

Most of my life I spend alone,  except some Occasions. Like this recently, was my younger cousin's marriage 3days ago. When I was sitting in the mandap I wasn't feeling good. After sometime, I was in tears and don't know what happen, I couldn't control and kept crying hiding myself, despite knowing I am in a marriage and a crowd of my family. Among all those 3-4k people, i.e. my family and relatives basically mostly known people around, I was feeling very alone and wanted to go home. That day many things didn't go in my favor as well, I disappointed myself and my parents too. I got late, things didn't go well, got some work stress as well, basically they are just torturing weak people.  I didn't know where to go, nothing was feeling like okay. I feel so bad and embarrassed, many people saw me crying and it was the time of couple's entry as well, it was very  important moment for the couple. And it would have captured in the camera as well. I was not in the moment but was lost of my disrupted life and tired of listening my marriage is next. I don't want to marry, but I have no option. All the attention to my marriage, and me here lost and is not at all happy with myself, at the point of my life where everything seems fake and worthless. It Is going to lifetime memory for many people which I hate. The worst of me always. Why not the best of me, ever comes out, when it's in years meet. I meet people once in a blue moon why am I so weak, when I am an idol there, where I was the only working girl and living alone in the family there? I am so tired of myself ruining everything, and immature of me when I just even turned 25. 

Frustration

I am depressed. I am not sure how I can get out of this endless pit. I am spending hours and days browsing social media. I need the warmth, love, and care of a kind human soul. But, I am also driving people in my life away. Something is wrong with me and I need to figure out what and why. I just cannot enjoy life anymore. life seems dull and placid. How do I fix this?

Depression

I am very stressed...i have my 12 boards....i can't concentrate on studies...my grades are going down day by day

Stress

04-18-22. 10:02 
I was doing homework. I finished it. I copied of website. I don’t know why I don’t have the energy to put in the actual work I’m still in high school so it shouldn’t really matter but can’t help to think that I’m just a really lazy person in a really bad way. I feel like I’m not good enough in any type of way yet again I don’t even put in any effort. Why am I like this? 
 I really hate myself but I guess that’s not even enough in order to change.

Education

He broke up about 1 year ago & since then he kept stalking me on Instagram till now.. he stalkes me 24/7 & texted me afew times anonymously that he misses me. I told him that i miss him too & let’s talk but he didn’t continue the conversation everytime..
I still love him.. idk what i should do..

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