im going through a financial crisis..i hope i could help my dad in which ever way possible

Other

I'm so much distracted with my toxic parents.I am a mother now and I don't want to be like my parents.because the one and only thing that I hate in this world is them and their social fear .Also they just married me to a man that they feel they have buyed .....I feel so insecure with this life.Also I am not able to go anywhere because now I feel insecurity and fear because the way they have grown me.After marriage also I am staying in this house.i hate this house and I want to go anywhere from this house.even I can't breast feed my child because it doesn't have enough milk because of my depression caused by them to me and after that they are saying that it doesn't have milk because I am not eating properly and also married to Village people's family and they also stick to their same words .I am not able to say their cruelty to others.please anyone save me .I am presently living thinking of my child only .I hate this caged life with my parents .till 12.05 they haven't given me any food also .I am starving .how can I feed my child without me being filled .please anyone help me 


Family

What even is the point of living? 

I'm not strong enough to love you nor to let you go. I love you more than i have ever loved anyone yet i fear us more than i love you. I can't live with you nor can i live without you. I guess ill forever be stuck in the middle of fear and desire.

Love

I feel lonely and empty all the time nowadays. It's like I have this hollow space inside of me, a void which I am unable to fill no matter what I do. More so, being single for a very long time has its consequences. This emptiness and hollow space, I feel, is a projection of my inner thoughts. There are times when I just zone out, no matter the time and place, and start wondering if I deserve what I have gotten in life. It's this borderline imposter syndrome I have, which forces me to question my choices and as a result I feel lonely and empty all of a sudden. This experience is gut wrenching. I don't like it one bit, but I also cannot do anything about it. Sometimes, it even is a consequence of my manifestation of my own thoughts. I crave feeling like this for the sake of attention from others. I know it is a bad coping mechanism, and I am working on it. But eventually, in the end what happens is that I feel lonely and empty and there is no dismissing it for the sake of my mental health. It is like being lost in a place you know inside out, to the perfect ends. Hence, I feel lonely and empty because I charecterise needy behaviour. As soon as I realise that I feel lonely and empty because of a emotional void inside of me, I knew the resolution lied in therapy!! :D

3am Thoughts

I feel that I have so much love to give. But I have always looked for others to give this love and then waited for their love to return. It was my biggest mistake. I need to learn to love me. Shower all that love on me. Not think about the world but just do what I want to do. But i don't know what I want. How do I begin loving myself? I don't know where to begin? Been a while trying to this but I just don't know what to do? Tried all the techniques found on internet but it didn't make me feel loved. Am I doing it all wrong? I just don't know

Self Love

Am i the only one here celebrating New year alone? But just watching movies, anime and just eat until morning? 😆 BTW happy new year to all. 

Celebration

How do you get out of the thought that you were somehow responsible for your abuse even though you were the victim? I have developed a self destructive pattern since a long time now. I feel like I deserve nothing and my self hate increases everyday. I dont know how to love myself anymore.

Anxiety

Looking for a friend to share my curreny mood

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