I’m feeling really lonely. I can’t sleep at night because of it, I put pillows on top of me to stimulate someone hugging me but it doesn’t help. I’m in a really small school and there is no one I can really make a deep connection with. 
I think I’m longing for some sort of romantic relationship, I’m considered old enough to start dating. 
I keep fantasizing about some dream guy, but it’s just wasting my time and I want a real connection, someone I can just laugh with and be with and just be given attention. I don’t know I’m feeling really stupid right now.
I’ve been going through a hard time and just been depressed lately, and now this feeling of loneliness is getting to me. 
What should I do?

Erm.. wasn’t expecting that. Thank you for the offer, but I think I want to form a connection with someone in person. 

There are only a few people in my class, and I am only really close to one of them. She’s nice, but I still feel lonely. There are very few moments that I’ve felt like I had a deep connection with someone, and all of the people I’ve had a connection with left. So there are nice people in my class, but they are all superficial, and not really there for a deep meaningful connection.

Start to love someone and before that love yourself that's all


I know this feeling…trust me a relationship is not the answer. You long for a friend you can connect to and be how you want to be. Someone who listens to you, who you can ask deep questions about life, about love, about everything the universe has. I want something like that too, and now it is a bit harder to do so, but they are out there, just hang in there, bring yourself to try to talk to people and see who can help you with loneliness. 

Lonely

Idk I am thinking so much  or I am exaggerating.....
But I don't  feel  good 
I have a cousin  who  gets  so annoying  at times  .....Like no girl  talk  to him idk why but U don't  like to talk  to  him ....  I just congratulated  him  for his graduation he is like thanks   babe ....that's  ok but he is messaging  me continuously  though  I reply  him after 2days .... If I do not  reply  him he messages to my mom complaining  that I doesn't  reply to his messages.... I stay away from him because  he is very touchy....... I was sitting  in a car going  for a family picnic we were so many  people  he came and sat beside me and was cracking  nonsense jokes  and was placing his hand on my lap I felt so uncomfortable  thank god my  other cousin  helped  me  to get away from him...., then we went to the pool so he followed 
me  there and accidentally  touched  my boobs....IDK it was an accident  or something  else but he is being  very  cringe ....I talked  about it to my mom she is like I am thinking  too much... he is nice ..... Infact  I showed  her the messages she is like I am being orthodox I showed her that he has messaged me I am a playboy  n stuff Infact he had written that he has physical relationship with many girls but I have never replied him more than hmm ,k y he is being so cringe n touchy ....
Today  he sent  me very vulgar message  and unsend kiya after I seen it and told me sorry  it was sent by mistake....
I mean how  can you send such a vulgar message  to  your  sister  sab  mistake  mere  sath kyu ...... 
What  should  I  do  I am so clueless.....

Other

No regrets

3am Thoughts

I need your help...
So I recently  went through a breakup, and I can't stop thinking  about him and I have SO MANY questions about our relationship and what led to the breakup. We did not end up bad, but I keep blaming myself for the separation. I know it wasn't my fault, but my brain just won't  stop. I talked to my therapist  about it and she say why not just ask him, and get closure. I don't  know what I should do, in one hand I feel like he is not going to answer truthfully (since he usually avoided talking about how he felt), and/or the answers are only going to hurt more than help me. On the other hand, I feel like I could be in peace with myself knowing what really happened and maybe even become friends with him. 
What do you think I should do? 

Breakup

My friend invited me to the wedding of her sister but she doesnt live close so I had to take an airplane ticket in order to be there. Now, I am here and my dress is long and by mistake when I wanted to stand up and someone helped me because its long I stepped on it by wrong and a part of material broked. I was sad because my dress cost 800$ and I could not dance because of that . Here are 80 guests invited. After that I showed this to my friend and she said : dont panic its not visible. But I am not blind it broked 4 inches and I really can not dance because I see and for me is visible and extremely ugly. And I was at the table where we all should eat and my eyes were in tears only but I did not start to cry and she said : you know what, please stop this isteria right now , my sister told me that you are gonna hurt her wedding today because you are isteric and I told her no, but now you are starting all this.. she added: you have to be happy because she will think that something is wrong and you are envious and you have to dance but try somehow to take the dress in hand or something … but I swear Im sure someone will observe and is ugly broked I really dont want to dance. She said you have to dance otherwise my sister will say that she knew it and I should stop the isteria. I did not do isteria I just had tears in eyes and said her that I dont dance now cause I feel ashamed. And she makes me feel guilty like I am always wrong, like something is happening and I am not normal like all the people and that everytime something happens .What do you think about her behavior? For me its sad because I payed for ticket , for dress that material broke and for gifts and now she said those words? Please let me know your opinion.Thank you

Friends

Ever cheated on someone??
And regret it?

Exhausted

I can't get off from by past , the guilt and regret made me really anxious and depres , i will never share this thing to anyone but i think i can do it here....
When i was 15-16yo alone and was discovering new things, i discovered a new thing called masturbation, suddenly i got addicted to it....and then once i was masturbating in my house by watching neighbour girl , there's a glass wall so i thought she can't notice me but then soon realised the wall is transparent, till that day my whole mental state changed....so much happened, now after 5-6 yr that thing still bothers me idk if she or anyone saw me doing such disgusting thing , but after that, i regret myself as a person, and the thought that my family not so rich but respected , i feel I'm disgrace to them , and what if she  or anyone noticed, it may be a trauma for her/them , and the image they generate abt me will be awful,...skip to this day I'm a social awkward person can't even make eye contact to anyone specially girls while having conversation bcs this same scenario always popup in my head then i get really anxious, guilt and regret....for me its a crime that i committed and can't get over it , i hate myself what i did, thinking all these things make me depressed, what if she noticed and if yes then im sure she had created a disgusting image, and everbody will think abt me, I'm not able to bear this guilt, what if this thing came out what will my family and everyone think, im already a loser and if this thing comes out I can't deal with it

I was in a room, surrounded by monsters. very frightful, of a hideous form. they stank like the animals in the stable. although the room was visually clean. I didn't see any animal filth, yet every time I breathed I went to puke. the walls were red. unknown how, but that color was dripping blood. it had covered all the walls and the ceiling. everywhere smelled blood, it was a very strong and heavy smell. I felt very unhappy. I felt very alone. I had no one to talk to and understand how I feel. to come with me to be my ally. to be my support. to feel me to enter my soul, to see the stars in the night sky with me. to walk on water. to cross all calm dark lakes and seas. to swim and play with the waves countless nights. on unknown shores with beaches full of fine pink and white sand. to collect shells. to feel secretly in love, without confessing to each other, what one feels for the other.

Poetry

“A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.” — Unknown


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