I’m feeling really down, just had a fight with bf and he’s not talking to me anymore. I feel like I’m alone. I don’t know what to do

Hey! It happens...
Give them some space, some time. They'd be also feeling the same as you right now. Things will be good eventually. Stay positive!

Hi!
It's just a fight. Don't feel so alone in this whole thing. It will you stress you out for no reason.
After things get normal then go and talk with patience and sort things. 

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I don’t know why I am doing this it feels really stupid but also therapeutic and I feel like it might help me in some sort of way 
I feel alone every time I want to speak to someone or try they will either just ignore me or call me things and every time it works out for me i fuck it up I push them away and hurt them I don’t realise how much I hurt them as well and I feel like once I’ve pushed them away I have broken my trust with them  and I will start to drown my self in thoughts which is bad and I know that but I can stop it. I can’t. The thought just overwhelm me and once that happens I’m gone. And ever since My gf broke up with me I pushed people away and led to me overthinking and I couldn’t stop it and all my friends just went and I try to talk to them but it’s hard I don’t know why but I can’t anymore. I am done to be honest. I just want someone to open up to but I know if I tell them they will think I am crazy and a horrible person which I hope I am not, the things I say I don’t mean but I don’t know where it comes from and when I’m saying them it’s like all my emotions towards that person disappear until I take a moment and realise what I have said but by them I would have lost everything there trust everything. 
I have started to listen to a therapy podcast to help my thoughts and it has worked I have realised some people are having the same problems as me but they are in my position.  Sometimes I like think to my self that my gf  could still forgive me but 4 months no 
I broke my trust with her she trusted me and I broke it. Like I always do. And quite frankly I don’t know how to stop it.
I feel like G(my friend) has given me many opportunity’s to talk with her but I don’t I’m scared… I’m scared I will break that trust like I did with everyone else.
I feel like new hobbies like crypto and hacking skating take my mind of it for a while but it doesn’t work. The endless thoughts come back. 
And I’m so fucking done with diabetes my dietician just want me to spend my whole fucking day looking at my phone constantly entering my blood sugar into some shitty app so I they the PERFECT BLOOD SUGAR. You see I’m getting my self wound up which  only causes bad things I can sometimes catch my self doing it and take a moment but the other times I can’t I just become a life less soul filled up with anger. 
The fact I feel like I can’t tell anyone about my emotions doesn’t help.  It feels like it’s illegal for me to express my emotions to anyone and the only time I have done it was with actually I have never done it except from now. Well there you go as I said I feel like if I express my emotion people will think I am horrible and a pice of Shit. 
Ahh why the fuck am I doing this. 
This is just going to come back and remind me of this time causing more of there emotions. 
Music helps me in some sort of a way it relaxes me and I feel like all of my problems float away that’s until the song ends leaving me submerged in them emotions again. 
Cooking will sometimes take my mind of things if I am mildly stressed or in worry I will bake or grill something up. 
Driving can also give me this sensation I’m not sure why it might just be one of these hobbies again but driving it’s so relaxing but can also cause great stress to me. 
Ffs why am I doing this just typing out everything I am saying In My head every emotion I feel for no benefit except the con of this being leaked. Oh well fuck it I’ll regret doing this but I’ve done it. 
I definitely could put this up for my English gcse and get a straight A. Lmao 
Every time I do get to play with my friends and enjoy it I fell like I must savour the moment and get clips of the moments we are having so I can re watch them later when I am feeling lonely which now is always I haven’t spoken to any of my friends in 1-2 months I don’t even think they know I exist anymore. I tried to talk to them but it’s hard as I said I find it hard to speak to people with out hurting them and when I don’t I’m not sure it feels like I’m acting as if I’m going of a script it’s not me. But I don’t want to be a person who hurts someone’s feelings. I want to be nice a caring person. Ahhhh ffs.  
I wish there would be someone in my life not family who I can just hug. 
Because every time I hugged Lara all of my emotions and thoughts just went I felt calm and warm and I’m not sure to be honest. 
I wish I had that again but trust is very fragile and easy to break and what have I done BROKE IT yay well done 10/10 well done you heartless shit. 
Well I think this concludes it I will not be having a gf anytime in the future if it has caused this I can’t handle it. I can’t put up with it.  


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