I’m feeling really discouraged today. I’m in high school and we do online classes, in my seventh period me and a few others said “Trump2020” as a joke because that’s what a lot of people say and I thought it was funny. Now I’m not saying I don’t like trump just for some people who do like him, honestly I don’t really care about the election I just have the mindset of “Oh ok he’s president? Alright”. But as me and a few people in my class were typing that, I’d say about 3-5 people texted back stuff like, “Are they serious?-Clown shi*- They really don’t know anything-They’re dumb“ and more stuff probably but I just said “Pfft it’s all jokes though” said my goodbyes and left the chat. I really don’t like that they’ve said, and I am trying my HARDEST to move past their words as a ‘Who cares’ but I just can’t for some reason. These people are the “Popular” people and I think because of that, that’s why it’s affecting me right now. The people who understood the joke with me were quiet and didn’t talk for the rest of the time, I believe they felt discouraged too. And I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say but I could only feel this feeling of being outcasted and made fun of. I don’t like it. And I keep telling myself positive things like, “It’s okay they just don’t understand your humor, keep them arms length.- Who cares what they say you only have two more years and you don’t have to see them again.- Lets just stay at our grade level and succeed in life, don’t let them get to you.” But no it’s not working! Every.Time. I think about them I feel like I’m gonna cry from embarrassment, like I’m going to one day be at their feet. And I don’t know what to do to get this stupid feeling out of my system! My mind is telling me don’t worry but my heart is making me feel like, “Yes, do worry.”
Hey, I’m sorry you feel that way. The thing is, nobody will really ever know who you are except yourself. We go through life telling people what they want to hear and we pick and choose what to say, and somehow, they know exactly who we are even though there’s more than they see. We don’t know who we are. We’re always trying to figure things out about ourselves. By knowing ourselves, we actually contradict our thoughts so much that we can never really understand our identity.
So I hope you realize that these people don’t know who you are even though they assumed what you said wasn’t a joke. It can be really scary to be judged and to be bullied like that. I think I get how you feel. I’m trying to figure out who I am right now and it makes me feel so exposed. I’m truly sorry they made those comments and assumed your view on Trump. Just know that you know yourself more than they know you.