I'm feeling pretty sad as i got into a fight w my dad and i hate it when i fight with someone that too w no intention of fighting at all. Why oh why he can't give me my own space and does he is a control freek. Why can't he just let everything and everyone go? Why he has to fight w everyone. I hate my life and my family just because of him.

maybe he thinks he’s always right and that fighting is the right thing to get his point across but in reality he’s just damaging the family as whole. he’s not doing it on purpose i’m sure he loved you all so much he just doesn’t know how to express it without being harsh , sorry if my response was unhelpful i am just trying to help x

Family

Things have been tough these days...
Confused between saying my feelings to the person or hiding it the way i have been doing it...
Is it possible to be frndz with the person you love ?
Does your little confession change anything?
Should i go and say the person that i have feelings and those i thought would go but did not go away with time and infact i have much stronger feelings now?
Will that not strain the frndship we share? Will there be no complications? 

Insecurity

I feel left out on every place,  even at home, it seems everyone are just pretending to be my side. 

Delusion

My friends used to tell me that he was interesting in me,he was always looking at me in a kinda love way..I fell for him and I actually believed what my friends said and I hate myself for this I always fall for attention and it hurts..I still can't find a way to recover or at least a way to stop falling for attention 

Exhausted

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3am Thoughts

i have trust and abandonment issues. i always tend to ghost my online friends but this time i'm texting with a boy from like 5 months. well i kinda have a crush on him but he has a gf and it's not a big deal anymore i've gotten over my feelings. anyways, i want to ghost him. so bad. but ik its going to hurt him so i don't want to do it. i just feel like he doesn't want to talk to me and that he will ghost me first and i CAN'T let that happen. idk what to do.

Stress

Does anyone have breathing issues when they are anxious?

If yes how do you cope with it?

Anxiety

I lost a lot in my life a lot I should tell you. Some people due to suicide or else people left me and promised me they won’t ever leave me as a friend but they did. I’ve been on my lowest for the past few years and I’ve this weird side in me that I want to keep a person save no matter what. I lost everything over and over again was used and I’ve gone psycho I hurt people so bad was always rude didn’t give a fuck about anyone cuz I was to scared they would hurt me again. Right now I’m in a relationship with my gf but it’s so unhealthy I’ve controlled her to the point she is suffering aswel. She had lost a few friends in the past but because I don’t want her to leave me I took everything from her. True friendships doesn’t exist in my world and I pushed it on her. We’ve been trying to fix things and it’s been so bad sooo bad but I swore to her that no matter what if she leaves me I would give up on live. She knew I didn’t lie about that so she’s trying her hardest and I’m here still living in the past not knowing what to do if she talks to her friends again. I cared to much to the point it was extremely unhealthy. But I’ve seen everything she still puts up with me she doesn’t even talk to no one just for the sake I don’t worry. But she said she couldn’t do it anymore and that’s when the eye opener came. It happened a week ago and it suddenly hit me that because I’ve been through a lot that’s she doesn’t have to suffer because of that. A lot has happened but for me it’s hard to trust people I can’t just do that but for her sake I will let her do whatever she wants now. But at the same time when I told her she could talk with everyone again she said that it was always about me and she couldn’t just trust me again. So I lashed out yesterday trying to make a plan for her to trust me but she couldn’t do it. The old me is coming up and I hate it. I want to be a better person but I don’t know how to handle it a little harsh word makes me emotional and the old me jumps out and tries to push everything on her with screaming. At this rate idk how we can go on like this. Can someone please tell me how I can deal with everything for example if she talks to a friend and not get jealous and not think she will leave me for them. 

Ps: I have autism and ptsd if someone wants to know

Mood Disorder

I am always a very positive and cheerful person, but somthing happened today....

I am 22 years old and today I am on a visit to Mumbai for my meetings. I have recently started to help my father in his Business. So for the same purpose I and my father were in Mumbai since morning.

So we went to one of the relatives' place and there we all were discussing about education of my cousin and then the topic drifted to me perusing education in German.

Okay, so I am waiting for my documentation, after that I will be flying to Berlin for my masters.

So todya my baba just said in a joking way infront of our relatives that - 
"Ojas (me) was not capable to do anything in India hence we are trying in Germany, maybe he would learn something there, hahaha."

I don't know if it was in a joking way or it was a taunt to me.
Basically, my education history has not been glorious. If I score more than 60% then I was satisfied. But gradually I changed myself and I scored 77.5% in my bachelors. Which is like Everest for me. Just imagine the boy who could never score above 63%, scored 77.5% in his bachelors, it was indeed a very BIG THING for me. But my Aai baba (my mom dad) did not react much. I had studied for them, I wanted to make them proud of their son.

But maybe they are not. I had put my 1000% efforts in my bachelor's study. And I scored 77.5% which was really a milestone for me.

But I think my parents are not proud of me. And today is the saddest day of my life because of the comment of my father in front of our relatives. 

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