I'M feeling not bad but something is missing from ME, 
Need some support...... 

Insecurity

I was the kind of person who used to get excited for birthdays and festivals, go all out for people I love 
But now im not even tho I want to I’m not, will I ever get that side of me back? Ever? Coz I want it but I can’t get it. 
Ik probably in my head my fault I’m aware but still can’t help it Why? 

3am Thoughts

I don't know i should be writing this or not but i feel very alone when it comes to sharing things that i don't share with anyone coz I'm living away from my family and close frnds. I feel insecure abt my complexion should i really be? 

Body image

Today, I felt really bad. As from last few days I wasn't feeling really good. And, was not able to talk to anyone properly. But, today I tried to talk to my only 2 frnds I have there. But, they were ignoring me already. 
I tried to come back from my mood swings today, but it felt really bad to see both of my frnds behaving this way with me. Chhhiii yaar

Anxiety

2 years before i had kissed a girl. I loved her and she thought of me as a good friend but hugs and cheek kisses were quite frequent between us so i thought maybe she might be hiding emotions. We had did a hug after class then I had asked her if i can do a lip kiss she said no then i said can i plz do it,she said no and i stopped then we two were standing there and there was 2 min of silence and she said “but only once” i said thats fine and we had a kiss. Then we used to meet we grew closer but still i was the lover and for her she was friend. We did kiss quite a few times after that 7-8 times. Then we got separated due to school changes but we were connected through chats after sometime we broke up the friendship becoz she was getting negative. Now after 2 years, i came to know from a common friend that she is saying i had forced her to kiss. i feel like i m a terrible human😭idk if it was forced or not. 

Loss

 Hi I am a female and I am 28 years old.
When I am single I crave for that special someone. I crave to be pampered and be called by cute names. I crave at night to have simple talks at least. but the moment I start dating, three days into it and I get overwhelmed.
 When I am single my focus is on me 24*7. I try to develop myself in every aspect of my life. I try to do the best for me and grow. When I am dating I do the same but I feel that I am present here but my mind is with him. In the back of my mind it's always his thoughts. I always keep thinking how I want to be with him so badly.
When I am single I feel like a free bird. I don't have to reply anyone. I don't have to check the texts continuously. But while dating there is an unsaid pressure of checking the texts. And there is this longing too that make me want to check if he messaged.
After midnight it's really hard to share my time with anyone. I feel it's my 'me' time. My brain don't work to have conversations at that point of time.
How can I be in a relationship, this way?

Boyfriend

Why we get more emotional at night?

I .so fed up with my mil. She doesn't want to take of the kids when we are out , she will keep taunting commenting n keep passing remarks. It's too much . Will nt let keep seperate maid for kids will keep on taunting will nt help in day to day chores and want to be served and respected . I am fed up

Marriage

I just finished my economics test there were 4 questions 5 marks each I didn't know 1st questions so I just did rest and one of my friend send me solution of 1st questions but I didn't cheat idk why and out of 20 I attempted 15 marks and passing marks is 12 so I am stupid that I didn't cheat or I did good thing????

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