I Dont Know

You dont have to prove it everytime, if the person is not ready to value you then move on. Let me tell you, at this point, she cant leave you at any time. Youre the one whos emotionally stuck to her

Sad cause want a gf

Breakup

I have this girlfriend 

3am Thoughts

SHE REALLY THINKS SHE'S A KIND PERSON. 🤣

Acquaintance

Anyone talk to me I'm frustrated right now 

Let it be one side. So, that i can't loose her ✨

Crush

I just wanted to get this off my chest.

The year was 2015. I was in high school, and there was this girl that I knew that had a crush on me, because we kinda used to talk and we had friends in common. I kinda neglected her, but not in a rude way, I just didn’t want anything at the time (or I really wasn’t paying much attention). In our school,  we had this thing on Valentine’s Day where people could send anonymous messages in a heart-shaped piece of paper. I received a letter from this girl (even though it was anonymous, I knew it was hers), and after that my vision of her began to change. I started seeing her differently, as I began to like her more and more and more... We ended up dating for a while, and it was amazing, but because we were in high school and kinda nervous around each other, we managed to break up and slowly grow apart (I don’t remember exactly how that happened). After that, it was pretty much downhill, as the years started to go by, she moved to another school, and later to another state. 
This brings me to the end of the year 2020, in the midst of the pandemic. I was reorganising my room, throwing some old boxes out and cleaning things, when I found that heart-shaped piece of paper that I got from her years before. As I read what was inside, a strange feeling was taking over my body. That type of feeling where a whole movie goes through your mind, of all things that happened before/could’ve happened if things had been different. I remembered when we were dating, holding her hand, texting her at night… I became obsessed with this idea that she was the one that got away, and i had to do something about it. I still had her Instagram, so I texted her and sent a picture of the heart-shaped piece of paper, saying something like “I still have this… still think of you”. After that, she appeared to be fond of me contacting her that way after a long time, and we started texting each other like every day. Things were going great, until the day she came to me with the question i was fearing the most “hey, I wanted to ask you… what did you mean when you sent me that picture? Why did you do that?”. I didn’t know what to answer because I myself didn’t really know why I did that, since I knew she wasn’t living elsewhere… but I came clean, saying that I really though we could be together and I really missed her. Her response wasn’t much warm, she basically said she missed me too but didn’t want anything, and that “sometimes it takes a pandemic to do some things”  probably referring to me saying all that stuff. (Continues in the comment section)

Relationships

This has been disturbing me for sometime now. Its been almost 2 1/2 months after our break up . So few days back i brought courage n asked her how is she doing . She said shes good , feeling better now so i asked if something had happened ? She said alot but isnt saying what ........ She ensured me that shes fine n its nothing but still this has been on my mind eversince.......

Talked to a friend today. Was really close with her ten years ago when we were still studying. She is now married and have two kids. Asked me how my life is going, especially on the relationship front. Told her alliances my family is looking for keep rejecting me because of a complication in horoscope. She said why so negative, no need to believe in all this. I haven't even told her i just had my heart broken yesterday. Decided not to since that maybe another negative thing to tell her. She asked me to quickly find someone and marry because all my siblings are married and having children and that i shouldn't be alone. I didn't choose to be alone. Tried many times to have a relationship. Never worked. Let others to find for me. Never worked either. Whenever people tell me to just get out and get a boyfriend, i just want to cry. The man who broke my heart yesterday, was someone i have known since i was 14. I fell head over heels when i first saw him at school, but never had the guts to talk to him. Years pass by and i dated many others, though only had one serious relationship, to move on from him over the years. Finally, towards the end of 2019, he transferred to work in the same city that i was working. By then, i thought i was over him and i thought we could be friends. The more i knew him, the more time i spent with him, the more i fell for him. It just felt so right and i believed it was destiny that brought us together after all these years. We became really close and i really believed he loved me too. Yesterday when i finally asked him if he felt anything other than friendship for me, he said "if asking if I felt love.. answer is no". I just felt so stupid and broken. I know it's not the end of the world but for me, it's probably end of falling in love. Everything i felt when i was with him, felt so perfect and just so wholesome. Always thought he would end up falling in love with me just like i did. I never really pictured marrying anyone i dated or having a family with them. But with him, i pictured a whole family and growing old together. I know many people go through these things and manage to overcome it. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it. Everyone i know are either married, in a relationship or happily single. Since I have always wanted to get married and have children, i couldn't be any of those. Whenever i see a video of a baby or a photo, it breaks my heart knowing i may not have my own and not with him. Somehow i feel cheated by God. Why bring him so close to me when i was sure i moved on from him? I wouldn't have tested the waters at all if he wasn't near. I wouldn't have discovered what a wonderful person he is and gotten close. He would always have been a "could have been". I would not have known him better or fallen in love again. 

P/S: just wanted to get these out of my chest

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