I'm feeling extremely hurt and angry right now!!
Why do people misunderstand or don't want to understand even when I haven't said a word and they are the hypocrite, coward ones?
Or why are they so selfish?
I really wanna..... Arghhhh... 

Be strong. Sometime people are like that. Spend your time with those who believe you instead or distant yourself from them. You can see the change in your life after you did that. 

Frustration

What do you think.  a boy and a girl can be friends..??

Friends

Ever saw a movie and wished u lived or got a life as that character ? If so what film and the character?

3am Thoughts

I feel like this is the last time I hit the bottom. I can’t keep getting stuck and unmotivated and watch everything pile up around me while I do nothing. I’m so tired of not being okay but it feels like it keeps happening. Like I’m never in control.

Anxiety

I am from Mumbai. I love being a listener. I like to hear thoughts, stories, queries, etc. I guess that's what I like to do in free time. So feel free to revert to me. Thank u.

I don't know where to start. 
I was sexually assaulted many times I think I just got used to it and now I have no self-respect, I was 12 when the first one happened and 13 when the last one happened I'm still 13 actually, they were all between the ages of 15 and 18, after the assaults I stayed friends with these people and acted as if nothing had ever happened I don't know why though it was killing me and to this day I'm still friends with some of them. 
People say I'm too young to be sad before hearing my story and after hearing it they feel sick. 
I was never really happy to be fully honest as a kid I was bullied for being overweight which then led to me having an eating disorder which I'm still trying to fight to this day although most people who knew about it thought I had recovered but little did they know it just got worst when I first started not eating my hair started to fall out, now I faint nearly on the daily but I just say its low iron hiding, my mum called me pale and said I looked sick but she didn't know I was sick. 
I also have bipolar, depression, anger issues, anxiety, and dissociation which sucks, to be honest.
Most people in the school know about my trauma but I don't care, the thing that really got me mad was when this bitch decided to post a video saying I faked it all for attention like why tf would I do that where in anybody's right mind would do that FOR ATTENTION so I lashed out and started a whole argument worst part was that she was my friend...
I have tried to km multiple times and failed which is why I'm writing this but one time I ended up in the hospital after trying to OD where I stayed for 2weeks to recover, it was hell on earth I came out feeling the worst I've ever felt.
to forget about my problems I go to parties to get blacked out wasted, smoke weed and cigs, drink alone at night drowning in my own tears and doing exctasy.
I've been pushing people away lately, people who are trying to help me and staying with the people who destroy me its as if I was in a self destruct mode 


It's been so long that I haven't been happy that I forgot whats it's like and I'm lowkey scared of it 
thank you for reading my story i needed to share it with someone

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