I’m exhausted after another breakdown. I’m so tired. I just feel like the worst dancer. I practice pirouettes until I feel sick and my feet hurt, but all I can think as I fall out of the turn is “again”. So I try again and I failed and I try and I fail and I end up self harming because I’m just such useless shit. I’ve been practicing since I was 3 and i can’t even do a basic single pirouette. I feel pathetic and stupid and useless. I have so many dreams that I want to come true - dreams like having teen memories like in the movies - dreams that will never happen because happiness isn’t meant for a person like me. A weirdo who isn’t normal. I’ve accepted that I have aspergers. It’s been a long time coming. I just feel so pathetic and pointless. I don’t know how to make things better. I just listen to and write songs that say the words I can’t find. Sorry for the rant.
Hey
Dont feel sorry at all . Infact I’m gald you’re not keeping the weight of the world to yourself anymore . I can only imagine how hard this must be for you . Just know that I love and support you and believe that you are capable of achieving any dream that you might have . Be confident . Take a break and don’t be so hard in yourself . I think you are a graceful , beautiful , talanted , kind amazing human being . Don’t ever regret yourself and don’t ever hurt yourself . All the love and power to you ❤️❤️
-N
wow, thank you so much for such a lovely response. I’ll try to take a break. Thanks again for being so nice :)
Ofc you deserve nothing but the best
I’m here anytime you need to talk.
Yo go girl ❤️
-N