Im diagnosed with childhood trauma, and now Im at my home where everything and everyone triggers me. even each walls are haunting. Just waiting for the sunrise to leave 💔

Anxiety

My best friend is a person joo over hyper hoo jata haii . I was sorting his work and he was calling mee continuosly and my brother was sitting near mee and he got irritated he has previously also mee that I should stop him and should not allow him to sit on my head but I didn't listen . Now I am feeling that my brother was right . 

Misunderstanding

Just a thought pls ignore
When people ask " life mai kya hasil karna chahte ho " I say blah blah xyz career but the main thing that I want in life is a house...
I really wanna own a house... My own home It doesn't matter if it's 1RK or 1BHK.... I just want to own a house.... 
The reason behind this is that I belong to an average middle class family and I grew up in a rented house since I was born.... And my dad or mom never planned on buying or owning a house whatever the reason anyways it doesn't matter now...
I want to buy a home in my own name something I'll call my own.... Idc if it's small or big.... it will have a big window with a lot of sunlight coming inside....from where I can see the blue sky the birds and the rain.... Fk I'll decorate it the way I want... I'll paint it with my own fav colour.... I'll design the walls with my own creativity I have so many dreams.... I hope they come true.... The imp part in all this, is I want to pass something to my kids which I didn't got (I'm not complaining) from my parents.... 























Dreams

Hello everyone
This is my first post. idk what should I write here but am not feeling well.I know god have better plans for me still I feel I am loosing hopes for my bright future. Feeling tired of being hopeful. Yeah I am going though tough time yet I want to be more optimistic I don't know how.


Exhausted

this app is better than tellonym. just downloaded after something happened w a friend.

don’t know how to build that trust anym honestly

Bitter ending is better than endless bitterness haannn!!!!! 🌼🌿

3am Thoughts

So... I am here after a very very long time. I was here when i was low. Now I'm okay. I'm doing good. And I'm extremely happy to say that. Because i had never thought i would go through so much and still feel better.I'm happy for the maturity and positivity that I've got.
But problems never end. And that's life.
I've so much to say. Literally so much. But time. Time constraint. That's the major issue.
I'm happy to have found this app. To speak my mind and heart out.
Its really hard to boytle up emotions and still look okay. I've been suppressing it from a long long time. And i seem to have been done with it. There are a lot of things that I'm unsure about, insecure about.
One thing I've gotten wigh patience and maturity is Anxiety. Idk why. I wasn't that anxious before. But now every small thing freaks me out. I hope i get over it soon.
I'm filled with positivity now.
And to all those who are in thier lower phase. Guys, don't lose hope. Keep going and going and going. Even if it difficult. This too shall pass. And when you look back youll definitely be proud of yourself. Make sure you don't forget to love yourself. Proritise yourself.
With love,
A.


I know this is too random. Pardon me😅.


About to start my trip back to California. I’m driving 2,500 miles by myself. After my recent breakup I just want to go somewhere far away. It will help me move on. 

Why the hell is it soooo hard to move on ? Especially when u have to move on from a person u never dated.
I was always an expressive girl and i was never scared of expressing my love to my loved ones.. and that's is exactly why I messed up all my friendships.. I started having feelings for my  bestie's bestfriend. We spoke often , chatted for a while and there was something between us and i could sense it.. after meeting him for the first time he suddenly became dry with the texts .. so i confessed saying i had feeling for him but if he isn't intresting to even have a normal conversation i can tolerate that behaviour .i said so confidently that if he isn't ready to put efforts i don't want it and said that i would move on quickly ..
After that he didn't say anything just said sorry And that's it.. now it's been 6 months and i tried ton of new things met new ppl had crazy experiences but i still feel arey... If he was here experiencing this he would really enjoy this.. arey. He is missing this .. i am always worried if he is doing ok or may be he needs me.. and i am sure he would never text me back.. sometimes I feel sad for not being there for him , sometimes good for cutting of his contact someone I feel bad for not being able to move on .  And now I am literally scared to even think of liking someone .. because Ik i cannot move on quickly... 
Please share your views it ll help me get out of this 

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