I'm CPTSD survivor. I have survivor guilt. And I still want to die, not necessarily suicide but die vanish. Recently I am having bad CPTSD attacks.

Pragati Phaujdar

CPTSD healing also includes having attacks because of survivor guilt. Atleast in my case 

Yes you have a disorder but have you consulted for that

May be connect and say if you don't want to reveal

PTSD

Is fantasizing about my death and suicide constantly normal?

Lonely

I'm suicidal again, but I don't want to be another body. Not after the missing person was found dead. She was friend's mum. Killed herself, most likely. I'm numb and suicidal myself. I refuse to be another body but damn it's getting harder to no just through in the towel and give up

Suicidal Ideation

https://nowandme.com/i-have-written-suicide-note-and-now-going-zH9jMMOPEIoZJNn

Please anyone help this person. Any help would be highly appreciated. Please!!

first time in my life i called suicidal helpline . had convo of 30 min ,,,i realised one thing we know every single thing they say and also we tell the same things to ppl who come to us with their depression and horrendousness ,we go same like them . just the thing is we are lacking in implementation which is something thats hard enough to do while going through the hell that we cant essentially elaborate : ) : (

3am Thoughts

I have written suicide note and now going to do it .... 

Depression

***Trigger Warning***Suicide depression
I wish the zombie apocalypse would start it might seem cruel that I  want humanity to end, but that isn't the reason. The reason it is it will give me a reason to kill myself for good. it will give me a few days of not having to do anything to just be able to be here without anyone needing something from me. I won't be scared it will only take a few days for me to relax on my own not needing to worry about school and exams and relationships mental health food. I will just need a few days to walk be alone and then when I'm done I can go. and ill have a solid reason to go. I've been thinking about ending it all a lot and I don't know what to do. I don't wanna deal with the future. 

Mental Health

End up 
    I feel like finishing up my life . Can't handle my thoughts.  Suicide ideas are dancing around me . For the past one week I've got many ideas to end up my life . I'm unable to escape from this fucking thoughts which makes me feel like a hell . I haven't shared these things about my ill feelings to anyone around me .  

 I'm struck ........


having suicidal thoughts. I know m not able to die rn, just thoughts.
n ya m just venting out so no need for positive stuff.

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