I'm broken today. I'm just broken today. I'm in love with someone, I tried my best not to love him but I just fell in love idk how..after being wounded deeply I fell in love again..but that person isn't love with me..he has started to ignore my messages now..idk what to do..I know it's not his fault, he doesn't owe me anything..but I'm in pain..help me pls what to do..how to get rid of this loop of thoughts..

Sexual Health

I am currently in on and off relationship dating a guy since 3 years he was my best friend before that but now things are like this he doesn't talk to me nicely like if something goes wrong he will start talking to me in his rudest tone when I ask him where does he gets from he tells he is using this tone for the one who deserves this but I don't deserve this kind of tone!! 

Now I'm a girl and my mom and dad is literally worried about my marriage and he is not earing anything right now and how can I tell my mom and dad that I want to get married to him. They have literally spent alot in my studies and everything and it's about my future. Now he is starting his business which will take more than 10 years to settle things now.. He tells that I'm very worst girlfriend who can't wait for 10 years for him to grow. I can but what about my parents I should make them suffer like this? ☹️ I'm in so bad state my parents upset with me my love life is totally out of balance. I can't sleep at night I cry sitting alone.

Boyfriend

I dont know what is going on with me. I have started daydreaming about these guy I liked in college but I dont think he liked me. I mean noone would want me, I am a big literal looser. This daydreaming thoughts just makes me realise that I am not ever gonna have anything like this. I am aware of everything but I just cant stop thinking about him even though I keep myself busy.
Whyyyy....I feel so bad and hurt. I dont even have anyone. I am just a joke that no-one would ever want. Why my life is such a literal shit since I was a kid. Just give me a break. What did I ever do to deserve such a bad humiliating life. 

10 years and still same he is my best friend, he sleeps with me  he pray for me, wish for me to have a good life but deny getting married to me he cannot give me any reason .. can some one please help me why? I cannot control myself anymore feels ending myself will be worth.

Life

I love him to bits but I always think what people would say if he spent more time with his girl buddies...I feel extremely insecure...amd some of his friends joke on him saying "we can't get one girl...how are u getting these many girls" ..orr" he is a player...if u leave himm""..like that makes me feel like and option or an obstacle...he assured me a million times that he loves me and nothing would ever keep us apart....but I have this voice in my adhd brain that keeps making me feel bad and overthink about it...like all I have in my life are issues and my head just seems to make them worse by  distancing the only goodthing in my life him...we have been together for around 6 years now....he has fine a lot and more for me...but i just can't stop overthinking...and fighting about it....please I need help..I guess...

Overthinking

Really wanted to vent because today marks the 2 year anniversary to my breakup. The relationship lasted for 15 months and it's been 24 months and I've not completely healed yet. This guy, I loved him to death. I think I still so. We broke up because he cheated on me with 3 girls, he physically abused me more than 2 times, he had anger issues, was a master manipulator and gaslighted me soo much. I was left without friends, without any support. He used to threaten me when I wanted to break up. I don't understand why I still have such strong feelings for him when he's caused me to have zero self esteem, no friends, no confidence, body image issues and MAJOR trust issues. Idk why I'm not able to move on

Emotional Abuse

my boyfriend is now out of town and i really miss him he is not talking to me in the sense he's always busy with his family and i totally understand that i dont want creat any sort of problem for him or his family i just want to talk to him but i feel lonely at times also i dont want to sound desperate idk he wants me to deactivate my acc on instagram he doesnt let me post anything without his permission im not saying hes overprotective or toxic but cutting off everyone and focusing on him being loyal to him i did every single thing just to please him and see him happy but now that feel lonely i really dont have anyone to talk with this makes me depressed 

Lonely

I have been cheated on by a guy i never thought would EVER cheat on me. We’ve been together for a long time. I know and feel that he loves me so much. He’s such a nice kind hearted guy. He is sweet and compassionate. I always thought before that if ever this very nice guy would ever cheat on me, then i will not be able to trust anyone anymore. Then so it happens. :( I found out that hes been cheating on me for almost a year. its so heartbreaking, traumatizing.  am so angry that i felt the need to get even. I get even and let him know what i did. We cried and became so toxic. Then he cheated on me again and again. We gave each other a chance. (I know. Im stupid. Thats why im angry at myself too:( ) But I become so toxic to our relationship because I really felt disrespected, unwanted, insecure. 4years after what happened, i still get angry about it. He seems okay. But as for me, i still have regrets forgiving him for everything that he did. I always think about it every day. How he made me feel. The disrespect. The pain that i felt when its seems okay with him that he is hurting me. 

Now, i can see that he is a changed man. But the thing is. I’m still mad at him. I am always angry at him. And eventhough I’m always picking up a fight and pushing him away. He understand and choose not to fight with me. Its so sad that when someone hurts you, it is still your OWN responsibility to heal. I’m so hurt and angry. And i don’t know what to do to help myself overcome this. 

Cheating

I haven't spoke to a frnd since few days , few mins back was thinking abt him 😂n now When I checked phone.. he pinged me.
I like such coincidence

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