Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m bisexual but I don’t want to assume it 'cause I’m afraid to not find a girlfriend 'cause I’m more attracted to girls so I tell people that I’m lesbian, I’m confused but I also like boys as well as girls (masc lesbians), some of my ‘friends’ even told me to choose one and some even said that it disgusted them and even did “🤢” and it hurts. My family are homophobic so I just keep it secret, I had my first girlfriend and looks like she never loved me since she’s telling everyone was we were just friends and I don’t even know what to reply when someone come and ask me what’s my problem since they think that I’m lying but I’m so tired that I just walk away. I think that I have social anxiety 'cause of my family since I hate to go out, my family always judge me and I don’t feel safe being with people