Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m awful,
I recently lost a friend eli. They were there for me since 2020. They were also my ex and toxic but I cared for them a lot, but recently, I confessed my feelings on how I felt about people sending death and rape threats to me just because I’m “American-White”. And when I told them that you CAN be racist to whites but people just ignore it; they called me racist. Damn, as much as i dislike my mother sometimes, I will never forget the things they said about my mother and my stepfather. I had to make a new instagram, i had to delete tiktok, etc.
Then eli got their friends to message me and “flirt” with me to get my attention by calling me daddy. I didn’t even know eli’s new friends.
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Like I get it, whites treated colored people wrong, and they still do to this day, but some of us don’t so we don’t deserve to all be treated like that. Mostly kids, some are cruel but some know their position, why can’t we just state our opinions?
Sorry if this didn’t make any sense, i’m just typing super fast out of stress and wanting to relieve all my emotions lol.