I'm a type of person who always feels bad after being rude to people, even when they deserve it.

Life

So here's the deal, I have an older sister and she hogs all the attention of my parents. She got her tooth out or something and came home crying in pain and my parents rushed to her side to coddle and nurse her. Let me tell you she is sick 365 days a year. Headaches, periods, throwing up and most of the sickness is a consequence of her own actions. She is 25 years old. She can barely take care of herself. I, on the other hand, have to look after myself when I am sick, sad, annoyed, on my period. I cook for myself, I educate myself, I look after myself, I bathe myself, I clean myself. I do whatever a parent should do to take care of their child, because to be honest, my parents were never there for me. I had to take care of my alcholic dad, stand up to abuse and be labelled as the 'bad guy' I am just hoping to go off to a college far away from home and never return. They have their elder daughter to take care of them 

3am Thoughts

Hello everyone 🥰I hope you all are doing good. 

I am learning but I struggling in learning........I am learning and growing in life.......... sometimes you need to let go of the things you love the most.......ignore bhii krna chahiye........even it hurts you,you need to ignore it for your own happiness or your loved ones.
Jb aapki life mai koi important hota hai aur use ki life mai koi aapse important aata hai and the person says ki you are important but nhh you are important but not that much jitne phele the aur voh choti choti cheezon mai dikhne lg jaata hai pr realise nhii hota use insan ko aur aap bhii use ignore krdete ho........this is the point where you do wrong to you🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

i think i’m going crazy i’m so done with my family. 


i had a fun day today with my friends then my mom called me and started crying ab how she’s so hungry and when i was coming home, so i told my dad to come n pick me up. gave her food everything was fine. one or two hours later my parents started arguing again and my dad gave the car keys to my mom and said some stuff “like take care of it urself take everything back” and then he walked out. after that my mom started crying and screaming at me how i should stop hanging out and take care of my brother again. my moms screaming ab how her life was hard bc she came form vietnam where life was hard at that time. my dad walked out and went somewhere idk. 

i’m so done with this family idk why this is happening everything was fine a week ago. please help

Family

Being around my sister suffocates me and makes me feel so lonely it's unbearable. I don't even feel like I am visible. She doesn't say a word to me and it makes me feel like less than a person. All she is doing is sitting in front of a computer and playing games talking to her guy friend the whole day 24/7 and never get tired of talking to him. But when I talk to her for more than 5 minutes, just trying to share some things I found online I wanted to tell her and bond, she starts to get so annoyed as if I am wasting her precious time while she is just sitting there not even like she is doing work. I can't help but feel so much resentment towards her. I do a lot of things for her like doing her laundry, buying her food, sometimes making food for her, etc and I don't feel appreciated and taken for granted. She does not show any gratitude. It's not much I ask of her, I just simply want to connect and have someone to talk to. We were close before like a year ago until she started talking to a guy online, she's been spending and talking to him everyday for hours that we don't even spend time together anymore. When I do ask if she wants to spend time now, she doesn't sound like she wants to and it always feel like she is doing me a favor instead of sounding like she genuinely wants to do something together. I just stop asking her now and she doesn't even bother with me. It just feels so one-sided. Even worse is that we share a room together. It's excruciating being in a room with someone everyday and have that person act like you're not even there or acknowledge you. I am trying my best to work on my own issues but I really feel like I have no one to talk to. I feel like I have no support and no friends.

Lonely

Main dhundne ko zamane me jab wafa nikla

Pata chala ke ghalat leke main pata nikla

Loss

I feel an urge to manipulate people

Mental Health

told my mom in tears i need a therapist for my depression and i still haven’t gotten one. this is why i remain the same way every day but i think this app might just help me with all my emotions. i finally found something on my own 

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