Vaeee @alba
Iβm a disappointment and I donβt know what to do about it.
Sometimes I feel like my parents should give up on me, but sometimes Iβm scared that theyβll give up on me. Iβve never get the grades that my mom proud of, usually only close to the target,Β so itβs still not enough. Iβm terrible at communication even when Iβm not nervous. Iβm messy and when I clean sometimes I feel overwhelmed and end up not doing it. Recently I lost my photo album full of my childhood photo, and I search it everywhere and I canβt find it. When I told my mom about it, she said that βitβs fine, just let it go. It canβt be helpedβ. But I know from her tone, that sheβs DEEPLY disappointed. She loves those photos and just because of my stupidity, I lost it. I canβt sleep after heard her disappointed tone. I know itβs my fault, but Iβm spoiled so for years everytime I heard that tone I wish I can disappear instead of continue to become a burden and disappointment. Iβm sorry for being like this, I just wanna talkβ¦