Vaeee @alba
Iโm a disappointment and I donโt know what to do about it.
Sometimes I feel like my parents should give up on me, but sometimes Iโm scared that theyโll give up on me. Iโve never get the grades that my mom proud of, usually only close to the target,ย so itโs still not enough. Iโm terrible at communication even when Iโm not nervous. Iโm messy and when I clean sometimes I feel overwhelmed and end up not doing it. Recently I lost my photo album full of my childhood photo, and I search it everywhere and I canโt find it. When I told my mom about it, she said that โitโs fine, just let it go. It canโt be helpedโ. But I know from her tone, that sheโs DEEPLY disappointed. She loves those photos and just because of my stupidity, I lost it. I canโt sleep after heard her disappointed tone. I know itโs my fault, but Iโm spoiled so for years everytime I heard that tone I wish I can disappear instead of continue to become a burden and disappointment. Iโm sorry for being like this, I just wanna talkโฆ
