I'm Christian, I live in india & I'm a teenage girl . Ik my spiritual life is not going good these days but why in my hard time I'm getting some kind of thoughts that My Lord is going to abandoned me this time. I feel like this when it's necessary I ran to him. I'm ashamed of that but what if he abandoned me ? This is the question that I fear the most 😶
Pray for me 🙏

God will never leave you nor forsake you. There’s nothing wrong in having a rough spiritual life. With time things will be fine and remember Even if our wrongdoing are like scarlet they will be white as snow.
Sending love ❤️ 

Spirituality

Would anyone care, 
If I disappear tonight. 
Leave the world forever, 
And come to nobody's sight. 

Would anyone remember me, 
When I suddenly vanish. 
Or is it  just me with the memories, 
That my mind won't let it finish. 

Would anyone try to reach out, 
And try to help. 
Out of anyone they could ever doubt, 
It was me who buried myself. 

Would anyone come to see me off, 
Or they'll feel lucky I fell. 
And celebrate it with a scoff, 
When I go back to hell. 


Poetry

Has this ever happened that you feel out of the town or you don't belong to this place.. 

Career

I have everything going good but it's not what i want

Anxiety

Hi I'm an artist I draw I dance I sing I write I act and I read novels but lately everything is off nothing gives me joy anymore . I've read a lot of books it seems like all the knowledge I've acquired is just a burden . I don't feel like doing anything anymore. I'm a highly spritual person n it's been somedays I'm not even praying . Ig I'm suffering w depression rn . I used to workout a lot but everyday is a cheat day. I don't feel like talking or getting out of my room . I'm physically fine but my body aches all the time. I've had very bad experiences in the past but there is nothing I hold on too. I don't even have a reason to be like this yet here I am. Life doesn't seem worthy enough to live. I thought I should take some meds I took some herbal meds that help w depression nothing is working. Every breath feels heavy my mind is stoned . What am I supposed to do????

Depression

Okay so I just feel like renting out.. nowdays people have been telling me to “Hyper down” or “stop being so enthusiastic on everything” or “can you just stop being so innocent and annoying?” and stuff like that… I mean before lockdown I was basically in simple terms a lone wolf, a bookworm, I never expressed my feeling and always stayed cacooned in my shell. Then due to certain events I realised that I need to “open up”, and start expressing myself and my feelings.But now if I do then I’m termed as a “hyper kid” or “the emotional girl” and other various names. So what? Am I supposed to go back to my cocoon now? Stop expressing myself? Turn back to the girl who was too scared to talk to her own classmates who she has know for like6-7 years?? Cause little by little that’s what others are forcing me to be…

3am Thoughts

I want to end it all...
It doesn't matter how hard you try,
Its not worth it..

Self Harm

I'm 14 y/o soon gonna be 15 and feeling like missing out everything due to my awful communication skills. Idk I was always so lonely and had no friends to talk to but lately due to the coronavirus, I'm just sad the whole time. I'm trying to feel happier through watching my fav series which is Skam, but it just makes me lonelier. I don't know what to do anymore and am so scared of the future and get so stressed about it even tho I'm so young. 
I don't know how to explain this, but I'm kinda imagining another "me" in my mind, which has everything i dont, friends, a family which has time and a bunch of talents. I daydream about the happier "me" in my mind the whole time and I honestly don't know if I'm just getting absolutely crazy due to this lonelieness. 

Lonely

I can't deal with sorting out everyone's problems anymore! I just want to end myself!

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