If you don't love the special being that you are then how can you expect anyone else to?

David

Now&Me Activities

I can't live like this anymore. It's getting too much to bear day by day. 
Today, I wanted to ask for planned leave to my lead, tho she is very nice. Still I can't ask her idk why. I am so scared of everything. Even the fuk is that Idk how I am gonna ask her. I feel so nervous. People are so scary. 

Social Anxiety

I have always been that person who was know to be cold and heartless, someone who has no feelings and especially romantic ones. I was the girl who would break the hearts of the guys I was involved with (I did not mean to do that but, I cannot force myself to love someone) 
I spent a very long time like that. Until one day, I searched about aromantism, and I thought I was aromantic. However, this week, some weird things have been happening to me. I was getting lonelier every day. I longed for a particular person and that particular person was not even special. I just liked their presence around me. I know that my feelings are difficult to decipher and for 20 years I have never felt something like this. Now, I am afraid of loneliness,  afraid of not seeing that person but I don't want to see them. Even my body is rejecting these  strange feelings, my heart is beating fast and I feel depressed, I sleep a lot and I don't want to eat anything because I am nauseous. Deep inside, I think I know what I am feeling. Yet, I keep rejecting it because the person I am thinking about may be toxic to my independence , my self confidence and my perception of things. I am a strong independent woman, and I surely don't need any kind of feelings to stand between me and success, what should I do? 

One Sided Love

I'm feeling so lonely and wanted to talk with someone and listen who won't judge me but then I realised that all my friends are busy with there lives. Here I'm in my room with fever. Atleast fever is giving me company 😂😂

3am Thoughts

I feel exhausted and irritated around my parents .. lately it has increase to a point am not able to control like before... I know that it is cause of so much of pent-up guilt that backfired and is now anger... It sort of justifying.. before I never used to show it.. I wonder why suddenly I am showing it as if am comfortable in showing my this side..  as if they are going to be as understanding as they were with my sister...
They don't deserve me and I don't deserve them... Relationship full of guilt from my end atleast. Were they always understanding? If they were why did I feel such unfair treatment between me and sis... I don't wanna be comfortable with them eniught to be irritated and feel endless guilt



Parenting

Communication is a key in a relationship. Once the communication stops, the worst follows. 

Relationships

Hi uhm I’m the past week I’ve been noticing that I’m not breathing and I find myself gasping for air. Is it anxiety? I have high functioning anxiety

Anxiety

My bestie got a boyfriend..i hate him tho cuz he's just toxic for her and forces her into things and ik one day he's gonna break her i tried to tell her but she just things i am jealous
I am now the third wheel everywhere and I feel bad
We are bffs for 5 years
But now that new boy who just came in here life few months ago is her priority
I hate him and i just dunno what to do
She is changed..now wherever we hang out its never 2 of us.It's always 3.
Now, whenever she feels low she calls him not me 
It was her birthday 5 days ago and since last 5 years i used to wish her first at 12AM but now he took that position too 
I asked her yesterday to go and eat out. she said she had some assignments left. but exactly after an hour i saw her insta stories with her boyfriend in a mall
Can i say i feel betrayed and used?
Like whenever we go out..her bf is always there..and they just kiss all the time making me super awkward..its always our plans and he joins..tho they never call me when they hang out( also i never want to go..!!)
So last month on my birthday we had planned to hang out and chill out on my bday but  surprisingly her bf was the uninvited guest. we chilled a bit, but i was feeling awkward as we went to eat at night..there were not many people there.. so they started kissing and i just was scrolling on my phone so i would feel less awkward as waiting for food to arrive and suddenly she spoke " Can you just excuse us..please go to the washroom for some time and give a little private space..we'll call you when we're don..pleaseee..its awkward you are watching us ( though i wasn't)..i felt hurt and i just went to washroom  cried and left the restaurant texting her that mom called me home as some cousins came..and that too she replied by a "K" after 2 hrs..i cried the whole night of my bday..she changed
I was feeling so hurt 
What should i do?
I just feel betrayed and used..
She definately changed..
What should i do? I don't have a single friend except her cuz she never let me..and now she knows and takes me for granted as i have no one to go to
Stay or leave ?


Adulting

Feeling so low rn. Idk why this is happening to me when the  life is going great 

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