If there is unspeakable love for one girl there will be a attraction for another girl...? 

Love and attraction are totally different don't bring them into one situation. 

3am Thoughts

I'm gay. Have no friends. 8 years of relationship broke. Going through anxiety and depression. Past 7 months, have no one to talk to. I'm a human too.
1 have feelings too. Would really appreciate if someone could be there.

Boyfriend

is that considered as cheating if he watches porn?

Relationships

Hurting guys isn't flex bro there's many guys that really have good heart there's just hard to find now days...cuz Girls/boys be using them.. :/

Overthinking, anxiety, crying spells

Hi. My family dynamics are giving me anxiety and I have been having crying spells for days now... this happens every now n then with a small trigger. I'm 31. I'm very lonely as I feel no body in my family loves me enough, they have other priorities. While I'm not suicidal, the thoughts cross my mind often. I wanna break out of this vicious cycle.. but that would mean breaking ties with my family completely which would make it worse. But my family can be very toxic, my parents are not bad human beings, but external forces (relatives) have been manipulating them for years dragging them away from me. I also have PTSD from a major fight that went down when my brother was still in touch with us.. when he beat me up.
Please help

Anxiety

Sad
 I am always worrying about every thing going wrong in my life.. every little thing. I am always stressed.. unable to concentrate .. I dont want to be sad but i always overthink.. i dont want to be like this.. my loved ones are also worried about me.. Everything that goes wrong in my life i always blame myself for that.. dont know why.. i really fear may be i m depressed.. and i am unable to deal with this problem. 

Depression

Why do I feel like I've a sixth sense...an instinct that surprises me each time anything happens!
Or are we really in a simulation?

This hard, flat chest feels so wrong.

LGBTQ

Hello..i am lookinng down upon myself...
i tried to leave my abusive dysfunctional home and family many times in the past5 yrs, but ever  moved out until 2020. Even after that i tried many times to shift out, but never could really be happy to settle at one place..
i kept looking down upon myself that why can't i settle unlike others, until i read yesterday that when u have lived in an unpredictable and chaotic home , change can be scary as it's full of unpredictablity and your used to vibe to that...
i felt pacified..
today is my brother's bday and last night when i went out for his cake cutting out of the room to the drawing room, i got triggered by him and made it about me and got angry and lost my patience... 
and yes he was being unreasonable and in denial, no doubt but i feel horrible
idk if its isolation of covid of bounty of triggers, off late, my anxiety has been on peak, with a gazillion thoughts of guilt, regret, over-introspection, thinking abt past negatively, self-others-life criticism at peak, selfloathing at extreme.

Last night i was watching a movie, wanted to settle down, relax and do some 2-3 planned work. But triggers one after the other, and crying spells made me mentally exhausted, sleepy and mind not working. After much guilt, i slept..i thank god woke up at 6, with thoughts, brushed them and slept in 2 min. From 7.30-8.30, lots of triggers, won over some, got affected n reacted at some...and now, my fresh happy mind in convoluted with crazy thoughts every milli second again, of guilt, looking down upon self in every possible way and comparing myself to so many people and friends and cousins of my age who made it successful and travelled and staying alone from families and are being strong and working are so bold and confident.
> But also reminding myself, after feeling all the crap and exhaustion atm, telling myself:
this too shall pass, i wil get through this, sometime i will be happy and joyour n free, i shouldn't compare myself to others as i have my own circumstances, survival mode, each to its own story...
and even those seemingly perfect people have their imperfection,lows, triggers and crazy breakdowns..

i am human and should be kind to myself and others, and mostly myself

as much bad as i am feeling being in my shoes, being weak and being here, in my chaotic home and not being able to work as triggers keep happening more often than not... 
but maybe' this is 'for now'; i will be fine...and i have the right to watch movie, chill..i am heard, understood 'no many how many years i lose to trauma, mental illness, abuse etc..i can still have a great life. 

Thanks for hearing me out..venting and sharing more.

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