Idk why this guy gets mad why he started talking mess because im going to chris brown concert while im prego. So I bought my tickets before you knocked me up. Now your upset because i said if i wasn't i wouldve went to the afterparty and that he'll be out of town. So according to him," I'm going to be out thotting" 😂 No like even before we got together you know i like to go out have fun doesn't mean im layed up or meeting guys like why so sensitive all the time. Then want to start an argument or say now i know how i have to move. 👌🏽 I'm just like it wouldn't be the first time you moved the way you did sooo

i will enjoy myself and my tickets weren't expensive as the meet and greet .

Confusion

What to do when the cause of your stress are your own parents? Having raised in a toxic environment where your parents were continuously fighting....the narcissist behavior is still there in family even when you are grown up independent person living with them. If you try to reason with them they have a ready made excuse that their health is not good and you are arguing with them.

Family

Hello!! I don't know how to say but I will try for the past few days I am thinking a lot about life and stuff and what I am supposed to do right now. again the second lockdown has come and again we back at home with our family and it's great to spent time with family but what about friends what about that young nights. I don't know how to interact with other people just by sitting at home or how to enjoy and explore the things which really what we want

Coming Out

Have you ever been in love and you know being with that person is not possible. There is nothing you would not do to make it possible but still somewhere deep down you know that you would not end up with that person and being around her has somewhat left you with a curse because you cannot love someone else the way you love her and you cannot unlove her.

Love

so many ex problems 

Conflict

Idk why people date when they don't even fight for the thing and just give up because we can't predict future and make commitment at a age 19 

But okay don't make hard commitment I get the point we can't predict the future but atleast fight for it to stay 

I don't get this mean generation sometimes 

Even now I hate dating thing I can't have temporary people anymore 

These temporary people come and fuck up our life and then they move on like nothing happened

Mental Health

My anxiety is at peak today

3am Thoughts

सो नहीं पाया था रात भर, 

उस खूबसूरत सुबह का था इंतज़ार। 

दो महीने की गहरी दोस्ती के बाद, 

करने जा रहा था मै इज़हार।


अनेक हफ्ते और अनेक दिन हो चुके थे, 

तुम्हारी एक झलक के लिए काटी रातें। 

तुम्हे रोज़ सामने देखना चाहता था, 

तो कैसे चलता बस करके बातें।


तैयारी बहुत कि थी, 

उम्मीद थी कि तुम हां कहोगी। 

अगर हां नहीं भी कहना तुम्हे तो , 

कम से कम दोस्त बनकर तो साथ रहोगी।


हिम्मत नहीं होती थी तुमसे झूठ बोलने की, 

तुम्हारे सामने मैं सच्चा बन जाता था। 

वैसे तो बातें दोस्तो से करता था बड़ी बड़ी , 

पर तुम्हारे लिए मैं बच्चा बन जाता था।


लो हो गई सुबह , 

पर तुम्हारे ख़यालो में आंखें बंद थी। 

फिर भी उठा और तैयार हुआ , 

और ली वह चॉकलेट जो तुम्हे पसंद थी।


दिल मेरा बेचैन सा तुम्हारे दर पर, 

दिल मेरा जोरों से धड़का था। 

लग रहा था मुझे की ऐसा करते हुए। 

दुनिया का मैं सबसे पागल लड़का था ।


कैसे हो, तुमने मुझ से कहा, 

और फिर मैंने तुम्हारे पीछे किसी और शकल को पाया। 

मैंने पूछा नहीं तुमसे कि कौन है वो, 

बस तुम्हारी खुशी के पीछे अपने जज्बातों को ज़वाब देते पाया।

तुम्हारी बाते आगे सुनी ना जा सकी , 

मैं कुछ इस तरह रूठ गया था। 

तुम्हारे लिए तारा बनकर टूटना चाहता था, 

पर मैं ज़मीन पर ही टूट गया था।

मेरे तो अश्क भी रोने लगे 

कुछ ऐसा मेरा हाल बनकर रह गया। 

पूछना था क्या तुम मेरी हमसफ़र बनोगी, 

पर वो तो बस सवाल बनकर रह गया।

पर वो तो बस सवाल बनकर रह गया।

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