Iam getting really anxious rn like my guy friend texts me gn everyday but it seems like he didn't i am worried that something might have happened to him.. actually he has high bp that's why

But he always talks about getting a heart attack or smtg and his bp was really high today and he was sad that's why iam more worried 

Anyways chill guys he is fine i was just worried for no reason 

3am Thoughts

there is something in my mind bothering me I don’t know what to do about that
i feel whatever i did in the past 6 months was good or not

i broke up with my boyfriend i had to give him some reason so i told him that my parents saw my messages and we can be together anymore
although the actual reason I couldn't tell him bcz that thing embarrasses me every moment

Breakup

Hi y’all, I broke up with my boyfriend and we were in a 5year old relationship. Its really hard breaking up and i feel hella guilty but i wanted to work on myself and my mental health. I wanted time and space as i was falling apart from within. I wanted to fix me and pull myself together. I don’t know if I made the correct Decision but he will hate me for the rest of his life. I had no choice but to let him go for his own good. I feel so selfish but i want him to be happy forever. Im just a mess and want to fix myself. Did I do anything wrong? 

Love

It's been 2 years since we were together. Kon kehta hai relationships are forever. When you suffer from an abusive relationship still you hope that one day he"ll change. But it keeps on getting worse. The relationship ended. I never thought it would. It's difficult because i am fighting with my own self. I took the right decision. But i wasted all my feelings and love. I wasted 2 years. Can i ever get back those days and relive it in a good way? Can i ever be a normal person again with feelings and love. Won't i be able to fall in love ever again?. 

I am in a relationship with a guy who is 11months younger than me and i will be 26 years old this September and we are dating for 1.7years. As I am a indian girl my parents expect me to get married before my 30's and i think they are right but the problem is my boyfriend is still not given me any commitment and i am not sure what to do. Last month we ended up the relationship but he called me up and said he loves me and cannot stay without me (P.S : He is a very nice no red flags, but he thinks he is very young to commit) but how I will make my parents understand I don't know what to do.. I am soo confused

Anxiety

Idk...i met one guy in past...we had fight...and i gave lots of chance but he used to repeat the same thing ...but when he left me ...i was shattered...am still
Cuz... yesterday his caring part was seen towards one aunty ....i liked tht...
Plus...he was sad when he saw me with someone else
I still miss him ...but at the same time i get those thoughts tht what he did to me ...we had flirty text...when i asked him to stop he...never talked to me then again he talked to me...i got tired ...now idk ...what to do 

Exhausted

💫 a slightly longer post 💫
I think we all know the moment when we start to realize that we have fallen in love. Being in love is nice, but what if you recognized your feelings too late?

So .. Since last summer I have been very good friends with the brother of a friend. Until recently, we both spent time together every day. When we watched series or slept in the same bed, we cuddled. We've talked about what would happen if one of us fell in love. After that, it was always clear: We are just friends.

For some time now he has had less time for me. We also had a few minor disputes. I recently found out that he was meeting up with a friend to see if the two were a match. At first I was hurt because he didn't tell me something so important, even though we have become such good friends.

When I drove past both of them recently, it hit me: Why is it bothering me so much? I shouldn't be jealous, should I? I realized that I didn't notice when I fell for him. Things I found weird at first are now the things I like most about him. After we talked about our dream dates, I wished that I could be the person who would be with him then.

Problem now: What should i do? Normally I would have no problem telling him how I feel, but he's seeing someone right now. What if he's already in love? On the one hand I would like to have him by my side again, on the other hand I don't want to cause him any problems or stand in their way. After all, we want the person we love to be happy, right?

What do you think? What would be best for both of us? Would it be selfish to tell him how I feel even though he's meeting someone right now?

I am in love with my best friend. He knows it but we just don't know what to do about it. We don't wanna break our friendship also , but we wanna date too.


I don’t even know how to start. Maybe from the beginning but it got that that point that I really don’t know where it all started. Basically I have been in tons of tinder and bumble dates. Most of them become my friends. Some of them I hook up and a few of them I have sex with. So in January I went on one and we got along we kissed but I wasn’t feeling it. In February I went to another it was better we got along we had like 3 date but I am almost 36 so when I see the red flags I quickly run. At least I thought I did. 

This month, I met another guy from bumble and it all went very weird. First he would never ask to add me on WhatsApp even though we talked a lot. Then he was making plans to come to my city (like 1 hour from his) to sort some bureaucracy and we made plans to meet. So I was like “maybe you should add me on WhatsApp” and he was like “yeah ok”. When he added me I saw that the number was from the US instead of UK as he previously said he was from, weird. And he sent me a video saying that he was looking forward to see me and that his name was different from the one he used on the app. I thought that was weird as well but he did say that he lived in America (and other parts of the world before) and I knew some people that changed the name on the app. We did get along well so I just thought we will just meet for a drink and it couldn’t make any harm. I have been living on my own for 4 months and on lockdown so it would be nice to see someone after things didn’t work with the other guy. So we arranged to meet at 2:45pm he sent me a message around 2pm saying that he was heading there because he sorted his papers already. So I got there at 3pm and he wasn’t there, I had to do some volunteering work that he said he would do with me so I just thought he changed his mind and as his phone is from the US and blocked with no local carrier no data I could not message him. So I went to my volunteering and he messaged me a few minutes later from Wi-fi connection. I explained I left already and he said he was upset that he was on the place he thought we were supposed to meet (I sent the directions correctly but he was in a different place). Anyway on my way back from the volunteering we decided to meet to see one of the touristic places here and have some wine. We got the wine but the place was closed so we decided to go to another one. When we were going to the place a random drunk guy stopped us on the street to ask if we speak English and if we could help him to find the address he needed to go. The guy I was with was super rude but I wanted to help, so the drunk guy called someone from my phone got the right address I got it on my gps and we walked the drunk guy home. The guys I was with was saying all the time that it was nice of me but he wouldn’t have helped the drunk guy, that he would have told him some truths about drinking. I think it’s pointless the drunk guy just needed help and that’s all. Anyway, we then got a Uber and went to the other place that is near my place. We carry on drinking we didn’t have much in common but we had a laugh together and we decided to have a smoke. I really like weed and it settles my stomach when I feel drunk so sounded good to me. I was with this guy that was cool having a few drinks a joint sounded like a perfect closure for the day. So we bought some from the guys and came back to smoke at mine. We carry on talking listening to music smoking drinking, we ordered pizza. Everything was fine. Until it got to a point that I just don’t remember anything. I remember we started dancing but not close together with him just like normal. 

Then I woke up completely naked on my bed with him fucking me hard. I was still drunk and could not react so I just said where is the condom he said it’s too late for that so I said please don’t come inside of me. After that I had a lot of pain in my head so I went to the toilet to pee and smoked another joint as this normally helps when I feel like this. I went back to bed and passed out again, he tried again and I said no and he did stop. I woke up a few hours later and told him to leave. He left. The blackout from the night prior kept in my head. 

I could not stop thinking about it so I talked to him about, he was all like let’s meet today again I will cook you dinner he made a video of the Airbnb he was staying and said that he would come back. I didn’t go of course I couldn’t talk much to him but I wanted to be nice as I was trying to figure out what happened. So basically he told me that we were dancing and he tried to kiss me but I said no so he kind of insisted and I ended up kissing him. After that we sat on the sofa and I said I was going for a nap and he said just came with. He said we didn’t have sex because he was too drunk and could not get a hard on, but other stuff happened. He said he was sober and remembers everything. When I asked about the condom he said he just thought I was on the pills and that I checked regularly. 

That didn’t go down well at all. He obviously just wanted to have sex without a condom. So he decided to do whatever he did to me while I was unconscious and without a condom. I can’t stop thinking about it, I of course don’t reply to him anymore. I judged myself so much, how could I be so stupid? I took the morning after pill. I worked. I took showers. I cleaned the sheets. I cleaned the flat. But I can’t stop thinking about it. I feel so guilty for this, I feel so shit. How could I put myself in such a danger? Why didn’t I kicked him out before? 

The worst part is that I deleted the app like I don’t want to meet anyone like him anymore but then I download again because I am just so lonely. I deleted again. I have no one to talk about this, I am so scared of the judgement even from my therapist. I can’t sleep and I have been over compensating with food. I can’t talk to my family, I am super close to them they will notice that something is wrong and I cannot tell them this. I don’t have many friends but received a few messages and replied trying to make sure no one notice. I have been watching tv videos on my phone anything to get out of my head. But it’s always trigger. I tried to meditate but it was impossible to not think about it. My birthday is tomorrow and I will need to meet my family and talk to some at the phone. I really don’t know how I can handle this. I didn’t even open my windows today. I just want to stay in bed. I just want to go back in time and never meet this guy. I just want this pain to go away. 

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