i wrote my heart out yesterday and all your support via ur replies made me feel so much better. thank you so much. i hope i am able to do atlas 10% of what you all advised me to do. self love is the most important thing but its difficult to detach yourself from the expectations that one has from the external world. you want to hear that you are beautiful or that they love you and the effect it has on ur brain is quite addictive and that is the root cause of all the problem.

i am learning to love myself too, finding it quite hard atm. having a few mental breakdowns, but im getting there i hope. always here if you want to get anything off your chest :)

Life

Ever Had the feeling of been trapped inside something horrible?
Disturbed family and a useless life 
Once for all you try to make it work from the trash and when u feel everything’s going to be fine,All of sudden it comes crashing down again.
And then you think may be if you had love in your life you would feel happier and relieved at times
And for your good damn luck everyone you meet is either an asshole, engaged or not looking for serious relationship
And then all from the start it begins 
I’m done trying n failing n keeping everyone happy n not trying to make a fool out of myself 
But it’s the same at the end of the day, isn’t it?
Hope!!🥺

3am Thoughts

I wanna be your setting lotion
Hold your hair in deep devotion
At least as deep as the Pacific Ocean
 i wanna be yours

Music

Male supremacy why his decision his words his actions are always seen as final verdict 🥺

I'm depressed so what do I do? Engage in self destructive behaviors 

Depression

I feel  very weird  and worried  I don't  know  how  to  describe it ...... I googled it but the answers are scary.... I want to visit  the gynecologist  but I am stuck  with  my relatives who aren't  my close relative.....
Unfortunately  I  am  suffering  form genital warts I'm  not  sure  but it is that's  what  google  says ...but it is STD and I am virgin .....
I am so stuck  I can't  talk  to  my parents  as they are quarantined and this is scary....

Sexual Health

दरिया गुज़र गए हैं समुंदर गुज़र गए 
प्यासा रहा मैं कितने ही मंज़र गुज़र गए 
उस जैसा दूसरा न समाया निगाह में 
कितने हसीन आँखों से पैकर गुज़र गए 
कुछ तीर मेरे सीने में पैवस्त हो गए 
कुछ तीर मेरे सीने से बाहर गुज़र गए 
आँसू बयान करने से क़ासिर रहे जिन्हें 
क्या क्या न ज़ख़्म ज़ात के अंदर गुज़र गए 
इक चोट दिल पे लगती रही है तमाम शब 
दिल की ज़मीं से यादों के लश्कर गुज़र गए 
वो ज़ब्त था कि आह न निकली ज़बान से 
दिल पे हमारे कितने ही ख़ंजर गुज़र गए 

Poetry

Today's day was amazing
busy and productive and tiring 
There were days where I used to hate being busy
but now I just love it
its my escape noww
Because when I am busy I don't overthink
I don't miss him 
I don't miss us anymore 
I don't know if I am over it or not but it's more peaceful now
I don't get sleepless nights like I used to 
and at the end of the day I get my peaceful sleep because I'm very tired 
Now I truly believe the quote "everything happens for a reason"
because in process to distract myself from my heart break 
I discovered my true potential and how much I'm capable of if I give my all without useless distractionss
You guys always listened to my venting and crying and replied to me so nicely and there were rude replies on very few occasions so I guess y'all deserved to know and I think I needed to let you all know 
and thank you all for just never making me feel alone 
Lots of love <3




Men's inability to show and properly communicate their feelings and emotions does NOT make them logical.
Emotion is NOT the opposite of logic.
You're NOT a logical being because you haven't cried since you were 8. 

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