i wrote my heart out yesterday and all your support via ur replies made me feel so much better. thank you so much. i hope i am able to do atlas 10% of what you all advised me to do. self love is the most important thing but its difficult to detach yourself from the expectations that one has from the external world. you want to hear that you are beautiful or that they love you and the effect it has on ur brain is quite addictive and that is the root cause of all the problem.
i am learning to love myself too, finding it quite hard atm. having a few mental breakdowns, but im getting there i hope. always here if you want to get anything off your chest :)
thank u love!