I wish I wasn't so scared of you 
I wish you didn't haunt me 
I wish you didn't cause me all this pain 


I wish I was strong but I am not ... I don't have the courage to fight back or stand up for myself I wish I wasn't like this

I am tired of waiting for something good to happen I want to die and be at peace away from these people

Depression

Hey guys! How was your day?

Anyone from Pakistan?

Affirmations

someone please convince me that it's fine if you do bad in physics test once (it's not once) 😭

3am Thoughts

I feel sad. My heart literally feels like breaking. I don't know what triggered it at this moment crying. I prayed Isha all while crying so much and all i wanted was for Allah to take me from this world. 

Good Evening , Anyone Their  For Chat ??

Friends

Recently facing a lot of stress in life.
I said fuck off to a school senior who is 6 years elder to me.
After realising my mistake I even send a sorry bouquet to her and guess what I’ve got in return?
Door step life threads with a bunch of boys.
This was really upsetting for me as it happened yesterday.
I would just say there are many variety of people in this world,at times it is not all your mistake and fault but nothing will happen if you say sorry and get small in front of the person you are dealing with.
People are crazy they don’t know what they are doing and this is incident is not from a shabby place in Delhi but from Greater Kailash and got it from so called *educated people*.


Mental Health

people always tell me like u can’t be insecure your skinny. So what just because I’m skinny I can’t be insecure every morning I look into the mirror and I’m thinking I don’t wanna be in this body I’m like skinny skinny and sometimes is doesn’t look healthy and that annoys me and I’m flat heard it from multiple people and it hurts like I know I am but you don’t have to point out my insecurities. Same with my nose I wasn’t insecure about it until someone pointed it out like just shut up you don’t know what someone is going through just shut ur mouth already. And I told a couple people that I’m insecure about that, and they were like no you don’t have to be insecure about it. But eventually they pointed it oud to other people and they also started to say like yeah ur flat and stuff like that and it hurts so bad and they don’t even know it. I know I don’t have big roundings.  and I can’t do anything about it so I hate when someone points it out and I don’t know what to do 

Insecurity

I have a guy friend, whom I love very much, he doesn't know it.
He recently got marrried.
I always used to say to him that I won't talk to you after you get married.
So the day he told me he is getting married, i stopped initiating talking with him and also stopped sending reels.
I didn't even congratulate him for his wedding.
But he didn't try to talk to me either,he just sends me a reel or 2 in few days.
I miss talking to him, sometimes I think of texting him and just start being friends like before,but I don't, because I still love him and if I keep talking to him, I will never move on.

I think one sided love is the worst thing in the world, isn't it? 

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