I wish I could use hating you as a mechanism for moving on. But how would I do that? You were and still are so good to me, you brought out the best of me making me a better person. I don’t even want to hate you I have no reason to do so, but I wish I did maybe that way it would be easier…Actually, that doesn’t always work so maybe this is for the better? who knows? All I know is that I might not think about you as much, actually, I almost never do bc I’ve always been good a suppressing my feelings locking them away in a place where I can’t even see them. But whenever I do think of you it beautifully hurts. That’s how I know I still love you and I hate to love that.
But your heart is with someone else and there’s nothing I can do about that