I wish I could get good people as my frnds and my love but always I get is only the persons like me lol they don't even think of themselves


It's ok learn English it may help you in future 

3am Thoughts

Can a person change just in 3 days???

Confusion

when your intentions are pure , you don't lose anyone , they lose you.! ♥️

Motivation

I'm taking a year off university to complete some exams. It's been already 2 months of break and I still can't get myself to studying. I know if I keep on like this, my gap year will be useless and I'll be in the same spot, if not even more behind, than last year. I can sit on the desk the whole day and never start studying.Help :( 

Education

Ih8 fitting rooms, no, more like em scared. Not because it's a closed room coz em not cl@ustroph0bic. Em afraid of getting in there with someone and tho nothing bad happened before, he (my ex) just keeps on insisting me to do him, it's tr@umatic for me. Em actually proud that I entered the room with someone (jowa) and it felt safe in there. Idk if he noticed it but I kept myself busy while he's fitting clothes coz em redirecting my attention and tho my heart is pounding real hard like it usually does, I felt like the traum@ is building up. Him as my safe haven only made me realise all this things rn.

Other

Confused

All time favourite poem (and/or poet)?

Books

Hello. It was one of the parties of my bua's family function. I was present there with with my dadi, immediatel cousins and chacha chachi. 
Everyone was enjoying.. Bua fufaji and their super affluent family and friends were super chill, being.. Talking a bit. 

While my family were the hosts.. And i was  there but within me there were few moments while everyone was enjoying, dancing and so so happy.. I really really felt empty and like crying. 

Idk why maybe it was jealousy or just fomo or my inner prevalent or Prolonged depression.. I felt like crying though didn't. 

And my own depression within..i feel so bad and shitty about myself. 

And also. Not drawing boundaries
. Or leaving early. And fomo.. Of their(bua's) lifestyle she and ber family has made herself. 

I also felt so unseen when the chachi who I stayed with last night and today.. And she ment another chachi she had stopped talking with.. She got bitchy about me. 

And I feel so low and hopeless and stuck and depressed within.. And especially that I am no where in life
. Or even not having such a loving fun frolic family.. 

Adulting

The night is still young and i am awake watching movies and Netflix thinking about when will i go to college.

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