**i will miss my dad** he is my no. 1 idol in my life. Love u so much papa. Best dad ever. Rest in peace. You will no longer suffer. Ilove you papa!

I am sure he misses you too and wants to to be good and happy in your life…and he loves you too❤️❤️❤️❤️

He will be always by your side to protect you ❤️❤️❤️

Family

Black bird singing in the dead of night... Take these broken wings and learn to fly all your life, you been always waiting for this moment to arrive

Conflict

I wanted to stay with my grandmother only she's there really understands me and care about me a lot .... But couldn't stay because of a lot of problems... Why I don't have anyone close to me who can stay with me 😔💔
Today was a real bad day 

Depression

Today I came to know that my grandfather is no more! He passed away 3 days before. I had my last talk to him over phone call on 25th October. I could have never imagined that he would leave me 5 days after the conversation.
In my last conversation, I couldn't talk properly to him as I was in rush because I was preparing documents for my higher studies. Today I am feeling guilty for doing that, you never know when you will have that final chat with your loved ones. Please talk to them before you get this sad news like me and tell them that I love you.
Don't be like me, I was lost in the rush of this life.

You will always live in my heart Dear Baba!

Frustration

I lost my father recently and I have no idea what do and how to handle it all for my family and myself. I am giving myself some big guilt trips and in my mind i think only : " why didn't you just call the ambulance?"

He was a alcoholic and that night he was totally drunk. He puked a little while sleeping. I saw it and cleaned him up a bit and placed him in the stable lateral position just in case he pukes again and it doesn't stop his breathing. I checked up on him a few hours later - he was snoring and sleeping like always. 1-2 hours later after that after my teams meeting (homeoffice, softwaredev) when i checked up on him i noticed he wasn't responding and he had some brown puke there which wasn't there before. Immediatly called 911 and 3-4min after that the police+911 arrived for first aid, but it was too late.

According to the ambulance my father died due a rupturing of a vessel in his body and his organs got flooded by flood/puke/stomach acid. They said that it was impossible to know from the outside and the person himself can't know it either and can't even call for help.

That happened 2 weeks after my uncle (from mothers side) passed away.

I am so lost. I cannot even look at his pictures without beginning to cry.

I am so lost. I can't even look at pictures of him anymore without crying


I lost my dad to suicide when I was 13. Ever since i cant get it out of my head. No one understands me. I lost so many of my friends bc i lashed out on them. I'm so alone no one to talk to about this. I'm 14 now it gets better then some nights I stay up till 3 screaming into my pillow. All this guilt, pain, regects, fear, sadness, all added up so stressful. All the memories got so hazy. And I'll think about the day I found in the funeral and it makes me think that I'm in them. Sometimes I forget hes gone and I want to ask him something and I cant. I just want someone to talk to. To understand me on this level. But no one cares enough. 

Suicidal Ideation

Am I wrong for finding my grandma's dead funny?
Now here me out:
Yesterday I had a funeral. My grandma died, I wasn't sad since we weren't close at all. The entire time I tried to control myself not to laugh or smile cause my family would start judging me, and I wouldn't blame them for doing so. I don't feel any kind of remorse for the way I felt even tho I know it's wrong. Now, I wasn't feeling sad for my dead grandma, she was an awful person and mother for her kids, but I did felt somewhat sad for my mother, aunts and uncles. When we were at dinner table I literally started laughing hysterically, now don't judge for laughing like this, I was making jokes with my uncle and I usually burst into hysterical laughter very often and I usually end up crying somehow so that was my excuse for laughing in that moment.

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