I went to hospital all alone 8 times and my family don't even know about it. 

Other

My relative who was hospitalized for pneumonia for past few days died today even though his covid report was negetive. He was the head of our family and I feel like shit. Why is he gone now. How are we gonna do anything without him around from now on.
I am so scared and in shock. My sister also is positive and my other family members are having mild symptoms. 
Everytime my parents cell phone rings these days, either the news is about someone's death or someone being hospitalized. I am so scared for everyone. I dont know wat to do. How to stop all this. 

COVID-19

My father is covid positive and is admitted in a covid care centre because he had low oxygen. In his CT scan report his servirity is 8/25. He has cough in his chest which is why he cannot breathe properly. I am so scared. I don't know what to do. I am just getting very anxious and I am not feeling well. I just want my father to be ok. I love him very much.

It is snowing outside, and I am extremely worried about Meredith safety. ￼

Anxiety

I have given my sample for RTPCR because I had temperature a day ago and also diarrhoea but I was negative last time might as well be negative again I guess haha .
Initially there was a conspiracy theory circulating among doctors that if you give sample  by your real name , u will come negative as they don't want to show doctors as positive otherwise manpower will decrease. Infact to support this Initially they banned RTPCR for doctors here saying ki if you have very high grade fever and shortness of breath only then you can get tested otherwise no and for the same you need a prescription signed by consultant . This rule was strongly resisted by all doctors which was taken back after a month because you know doctors were like ("Kya kru mein mar jau? Meri koi feeling nai hai" - this is a meme) 
Yesterday a vip patient died. We have been keeping this patient alive for 9days!
Usko har alternative days we would take him for dialysis.. so for that as he was intubated one person had to ambu him throughout the way to the dialysis place and then there connect him back on ventilator and when again when dialysis was done ambu him back.
A ward boy can do it too but at dialysing place there is a line of patients lol so the thing is if a doctor is accompanying the patient you can get it done first by talking to doctor on duty there .
Anyway so let's call this vip patient as patient P.
P was 28 years old. When we got very serious 3 days ago we told his sister then and there he might not make it out alive and she.. has a medical background so she called so so many doctors , I received calls from so many doctors and they be like "take good care of him" and I was like dude just stop we are already doing our best and we would specially look after him and give him time and everything by default because he's a young patient. But the calls really frustrate me. But it's a thing in india
 (" approach lagwana") . So yesterday a new patient came let's name him V.
Now V has a kidney disease along with covid positive.  And P just was on verge of death and he had kidney disease and many other things or I can just say it you can google it later he had AKI (Acute kidney injury) , ARDS , Drug induced hypoglycemia , thrombocytopenia , MODS , with sepsis ,and mucormycosis in his last days.
Now P basically started dying after his dialysis and he was given life saving drug adrenaline to keep his heart beating for 30more minutes.
I told his sister that he died downstairs but we sort of revived him and she again got hopeful I was frustrated and I said look.. his body is going ZERO efforts! ZERO he's basically only alive because of live saving drugs. 
She began crying . I said he's just too critical.
Then V had to be taken for dialysis and I had to go with him. So the ward boys wore a ppe kit and I asked nurse for it I was told "you can only get it for your round only two kits were available which two doctors took it for round and to see patient P inside") I was like fine I'll go like this just give me a shield. This happens a lot , we go inside and along with patients without wearing proper gear all the time. So I ran for  V and I happened to be in a void time where one technician goes and other comes in. I kept saying V will die hurry up and they did then I sedated V and his dialysis began and by that time I was called back up due to immese work at my icu floor so I gave the nurse at dialysis place my number that call me once this dialysis is over and then I came up for P was dying again and cpcr was started and by this tine I was so so sigh. I prayed to God , god please don't torture this young man. Every cpcr hurts like hell with your ribs being broken and having a tube inside amd mucor infection and everything he was in immense pain. I prayed to either...save him or just .. you know.. and this was going and I was doing some other work and then I was called down again for V wasnt properly sedated on haloperidol so I adviced midazolam and then again I came back up ( yes it's tiring very tiring especially when you're having really bad menstrual cramps) then I came back up to see P was dead and I had to make his death forms. And by that time my Zomato parcel came at 5pm (I skipped lunch so this was my lunch lol) and sir said bring V back his dialysis is done. So I rolled my eyes and went downstairs lol. And on the way I told a random ward boy to bring my parcel as the Zomato guy was too scared to even enter put building lol. So I brought V back and then everything was fine and I ate and sat down for the first time on my shift and it gave me so so mucb relief haha and my team also came and we all ate ( as I ordered for everyone) . I still think we saved V. Who's 27. Sigh. I don't want to think about P . It makes one sad. All of us were sad even the nursing staff. 
And then again we resumed work . I was dead tired like all parts of my body hurt -_-.

Depression

Quick Poll: Conflicted 
I was very indirectly exposed to covid. It was a mere quick passing through. I work as home care employee. Everyone has had their shots. Should I still be honest, tell my boss and clients, and be diligent with mask,ect... most people think I should be ok?? But it's really not about me,is it? Can't afford the loss of hours either tho...I hate these kinds of conflictions!!! Fml!

COVID HELP

Adversities: Coronavirus
The novel coronavirus (COVID-19) crisis in India may disproportionately hurt millions of urban poor living in slums across major cities. The slew of measures undertaken by the Centre and State governments, including the 21-day lockdown to enforce “social distancing”, may not be adequate to shield urban slum dwellers from the disease. Over 65 million or 22 per cent of India’s total population lives in urban slums, which are characterized by acute poverty, over-crowding, unhealthy living conditions, and a weak urban public health setup. The effect of the lockdown, though well-intentioned, will affect the urban poor more than anyone else. To make matters worse, public health centres may not be equipped to provide quality and affordable healthcare for the people living in poverty.

The number of COVID-19 cases in India is witnessing a sharp increase. In the absence of community testing, it is unclear whether the outbreak has made its way into the urban slums, especially across metropolitan areas. But it is abundantly clear that combating the COVID-19 in urban slums will take more concerted efforts and expose a large section of the urban poor families to deep impoverishment. The social distancing measures may not be as effective in this context, since the dynamics of poverty and disease plays out differently for urban slum dwellers, compared to the wealthier sections of the society.

A majority of the families living in slums are migrant workers who undertake both short and long duration movements to cities to look for higher wages and work opportunities. The work in an urban informal economy is intermittent, marked by low-skill requirements, low wages, severe competition, and constant job insecurity. Therefore, a migrant household living in urban slums may not have the luxury to “work from home” in a highly informal market. The families living under or near poverty may not have disposable cash to stockpile food or basic necessities for a 21-day lockdown, leaving them vulnerable to hunger, malnutrition, and increasing their vulnerability to the virus. A potential outmigration of the urban poor back to the villages may also exacerbate the extent of the outbreak in India.

The physical environment of an urban slum makes it a Petri dish for disease transmission. Data reported by the central government finds that slums are often located along drains or railway lines, and many of them lack basic drinking water, sanitation, and sewage or garbage disposal systems. Slums are incredibly packed spaces that can make social distancing nearly impossible with reports suggesting more than 1,00,000 people living per square kilometre. The insanitary living conditions and overcrowding have previously led to a history of infectious disease epidemics such as the H1N1 swine flu in 2015, or the dengue and chikungunya outbreak in 2015-16.

The implications of a Covid-19 outbreak in the urban slums can be disastrous for the urban poor and the public health setup. In the absence of affordable and quality public healthcare, families living in slums run the risk of deep impoverishment, disease, and death. On the other hand, the public health system runs a high risk of getting overrun by patients, only at a scale much worse than the previous swine-flu outbreaks.

The situation calls for a roll-out of urgent administrative measures, starting with affordable or free testing, identification, and quarantine of bearers of the virus in slum areas. This has to be followed by the provision of door-to-door drinking water and mobile toilet facilities to avoid crowding around water points or community toilets.



Anybody wants to join me in screaming into the pillows cause everything Corona related and not are getting overwhelming? 

What do you think about the rising corona cases in india?..who is responsible for it?

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