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Jacey<3 @im_not_okay

i was watching a video. a few months after my sister was born. My mom was young. she was 19 or 20 when she had my sister. she was so beautiful. she was so pretty. my sister is turning 21 Friday. my mom never got to see her graduate. she wont see any of us graduate. she wont be able to see me walk across the stage. i dont understand why life is so unfair. she worked so hard. for us, and she doesnt even get to see me and my siblings graduate. the room they were inโ€ฆin the videoโ€ฆ it looked so familiar. but not at the same time. she doesnt get to see us do the things we all wanted to do. she was so supportive. โ€œnobody cares.โ€ โ€œthey arent listening to you.โ€ she always did. she loved us. everyone else still has their mom. โ€œyour life isnt that badโ€ โ€œwhy do you waste so much food?โ€ i dont understand why im so ungrateful. at least im not starving. all i want is her. my sister looks so much like her. they are both so beautiful. i want to be like them. i want to go back to when i didnt have to worry about me cutting or what my dad is going to yell at me for.

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So sorry that yoy feel this way
May her soul rest in peace
But I dont know is it childish or what
First thing is she has worked hard for you guys and she would be really proud of you that her hardwork got paid off right.
Maybe she is not with you physically but mentally emotionally
And if you guys are so close with her
You may feel her around you guys
So dont worry no one is ungrateful.
Some stories ended abruptly but that doesnโ€™t mean they are not able to see you guys.
I bet she would be so happy and proud with you from above.
Work hard and be there for each other no matter what .
Everything will be OK.๐Ÿ˜Š

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