I was really stressed because of a comment my mother made. Due to the extension of the quarantine I can probably lose this semester, and I'm super worried because I'm paying my own education. So today she asked me if I was happy hearing that, obviously I wasn't happy about it and said no. She laughed at my face telling me that my expression had 

I'm sorry to hear that, it must be so hard on you...to already be concerned about something and then to have that rubbed into your face.I think the last sentence isn't complete, which is what I'm waiting to know. Keep me posted!

Relationships

Noicee

Anger Issues

Today's generation is weak, no purpose,  sleep deprived, depress and what not.  They grown out of environment where they had no responsibility to strengthen them. Neither a goal to achieve.
 Emotionally hijack.

Education

Get a life ppl 

3am Thoughts

Anyone?

Coming Out

I feeling unsure of what to do anymore 
I'm still in love with a girl I went to high school with. It's been 13 years since I dropped out of school, we talked to each other from time to time or when we'd run into one another. She use to work at a photography booth at Walmart, when I first started working at my current job I'd go there to cash my check just so I could talk to her for a few minutes, which was the highlight of my week. I was dating someone at the time which we stayed together for 14 years and was married and had two beautiful girls so I couldn't ever tell her how i felt. Two years ago my wife and I split and it was partially because of this girl I'm in love it. Things had fallen apart between my wife and I and I was drinking with a friend of mine one night and told him how I felt about this girl, he was friends with her also and wanted to help me in some way so he messaged her one day and told her I'm unsure of what he said but that night he came and told me that she was down the street at a friend's house and that he'd talk to her. At the moment we was about to run to the store and I figured why not stop by and talk to her, little did I know that one night would change my life. We talked like we always had for a while and hugged and said our goodbyes after a bit. I couldn't stop thinking about her being in my arms after that. We started massaging afterwards and I told her how I felt, she said she was in no position to be dating anyone at the time and I told her I understood, thinking that she'd been hurt and wasn't sure about jumping into another relationship. She knew I was married and that I wasn't happy and was thinking of leaving my wife, which I did a few weeks later. The fact that I left did change things between us, but I was prepared for that,  she wasn't the only reason for me leaving. But we talked for about 8 months afterwards, hanging out every now and then. But I could help but feel she didn't feel the same. I overreacted a few time over things she posted, manly because I didn't know how she felt about me and assumed the post were about me. Which was the wrong thing to do, communication is key in a relationship or friendship and I hadn't asked her how she felt about me or what the post were about. But when I felt like she was blowing me off when I'd ask if she wanted to hang out or go to the movies, she always had something to do or couldn't which was okay but I felt it was time for me to leave her alone. I'm a kinda shy guy and dont always know what to say and I'm not very good at starting a conversation, so when we would hangout I didn't say much. I couldn't help it she made my heart race and my head spin, she didn't give me butterflies she gave me pterodactyls. But acting like that I'm sure made her uninterested in me. We haven't talked in a while, I've kept my distance ever since I saw a post ofnhers that just really hit hard. It was a hand coming out of water saying "I love you" and in the next picture it was a hand give the other a high five and saying "I like you" the next picture was the first hand going down in the water as if it was drowning. Which was about how I felt, still kinda do. I ended up messaging her and tell her I was sorry for everything, for being so clingy and obsessed, she told me she was sorry for making me feel like that way, when I was all m. Im not mad at her for not feeling the same as I do, little heartbroken but I dont think I could ever be mad at her. But even now that I'm dating someone else I still can stop thinking of her every day, I follow her on social media just to see her pictures and see how she's doing. I've went as far as following accounts she probably hasn't used in years because there's pictures of her from when we use to hangout. I miss her so fucking much and I dont know what to do anymore. Do I wait and tell her when she's single again? Do i just give up on her? Would I even be good for her being in her life? I DONT KNOW ANYMORE 

Depression

Each day brings with it a new slate to fill. It can have traces of previous drawings but it is yet manageable. 

Other

He said “you’re just like my ex” how do I respond to that?

Boyfriend

Why don't my parents understand that subjecting women to certain jobs is not okay?! I am a 17yr old girl. They expect me to not revert back because reverting them back is proving them wrong and they think that they are never wrong, whatever they are saying is always right. 
Body shaming me, sometimes comparing me with my cousins and my friends on the basis of my academics and appearance. This hurts like anything.
They think that I should be more polite, know how to cook, do the household chores. Bro, I'm not interested in doing household chores. 
I can do the cooking but not the household chores. I am not interested in that. 
But you know if a girl cannot do these things, she won't be able to find a man. No matter what happens, it is the girl who has to adjust.
I actually don't say anything to them anymore because now I have understood that their upbringing was done in such a society so eventually it's entirely no their fault. But still, they should see the things from our generation's respective too. 
I am really annoyed by this mentality of theirs.



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