i was happy the first time in 5 months last day and it's making me cry bc i didn't knew how to be happy anymore but i did it, so you guys can do to

i really hope that to and if there's ever something you wanna talk about tell me

Hi!
I feel happy to read this and proud that you are happy again and making you believe that once we decide something for ourself we can achieve it.

I hope happiness doesn't leave you now. 💚

Happy

I got emotionally attached to a person who was like a father to me.. He used to guide me, talk to me about problems just like my father.. But all of a sudden one day he wasn't there when i needed him.. Like he used to be with me during good times but left me alone at the lowest phase! There were my parents who stood strong by my side... And i gave that person the equal  respect i gave to my parents... I stopped talking to him since then.. But i still miss those memories like the way he made me feel, and how he used to talk to me and listen to my problems! But my trust broke
And i don't know how to do it again.. I have TRUST in nothing except my parents
"I don't regret u but sometime i wish i had walked away at the start and left things at hello!"


Misunderstanding

I am a phd scholar about to complete  my phd and in this covid crisis no job is there.  Mind is not relaxed always something is going on 
Sometimes feels that life is not worthy any more 

Anxiety

My ex just found a new relationship.i don't know y I am feeling something bad .i am the one who initiated the break up 🙂i should be happy for him but I can't .but y...i also feel like being the only single like most of my friends and Cousins got commited and now my ex too.🤷🏻‍♀️🥲

Love

If you want the rainbow 🌈 then you gotta put up with the rain🫧✨

Dreams

I used to be so much fun person enthusiastic and active. I spoked a lot. But now I am just.. a boring person. I talk to my friends only when we have some work. I don't actively take part in conversation. I have just became a mean sarcastic person. Sometimes I feel that I have so many people to talk to but I can't . I don't know why this is happening to me. It's just no one knows anything going on in my life. It like I have distaned myself from everybody. I really don't have any friends. I feel so lonely. I want someone who can just love me the way I used to love or care or trust others. I have been putting my anger rage in control for so long period that it has ended as anxiety and panic attacks. When I am angry I just cut myself. I have became so sensitive . I cry over very little things. And I am so mean to people because for them I am the one who doesn't cry who doesn't care. I think it good when people hate you cause it's like they dont expect anything from you. They know you are gonna say something mean. I really don't care about others now. And my sister is so upset about this. But I am just like ki pls for once don't tell me I am mean but think what made me like this. What changed me to this. Sometimes I feel I don't deserve anything. I feel like to end my life. I wanna cut myself again though I know it's so baadd for me......

Depression

What will be your first thought if I would have said: 
“Jab log the bat krne ko tb phone nahi tha, ab phone hai hath me to log nahi bat krne ko?”
This means when there were people around me whom I wanted to talk to, but there was no phone to contact them, today I have my phone with me all the time but have no people to talk with.
I still remember the time when Facebook was new in India. We used to make our ids and send friend requests to everyone to make sure we never lose contact and be in touch with every person we know. Also to be in touch with the world, the people we don’t know in person but can be friends with. The best phone in our home was a QWERTY set and Nokia 1100. My mother scolded me every other night because I used to stay up too late at night, sometimes studying and sometimes chatting with my friends on Facebook. But as you know we had to type every word on that keypad. If I am to write “Hello” to someone then I need to press 13 times. Anyone can sense that sound at night because of the pin-drop silence. That time she told me, you should concentrate on studying right now and when you will grow up then we will get you a phone then you can chat with your friends. But no one told me that as you grow old, the number of people around you becomes less with time. Today we may have more than 1K contacts on our phones or more than 10K followers on Instagram, but in reality, we have only a few people to whom we can talk. Sometimes it’s hard to understand what is our generation doing. Keeping your heads down and looking to your phone every time, scrolling social media feeds and reels will not help your mental sanity. That does not make us humans because humans need each other to interact. We need the physical presence of true people instead of having 1K illusionary digital friends whom we call friends but they are no more than acquaintances. Hope this world will be a better place with time where people will interact in real. 


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